HBD.

 It was a Jasmine plant. I wish you everything but the best sweetheart. Take care.

Happy birthday! (19th of May 2022)

A rainy morning. As usual, my alarm rang around 5am. I didn't receive a "Good morning" message though. This is my routine now. There are a lot of things to celebrate today. Everything is about you sweetheart. I don't know how to keep my heart silent. My heart sings your name in various ways. I'm writing this around 6.40am. If I'm correct, you are waiting to take the bus. 

I never wanted to say goodbye. I know that I was the wrong person. My behaviour wasn't good. Anyway, I have to say that I genuinely loved you. Loved you like a mad person. And I still love you. Time passes so fast. Today is 19th of May. I haven't forgotten. I will silently celebrate your day. I wish I could come and hug you and tell you how much I love you. Go for a walk in Thorrington. Take lunch with you. Watch a movie and take you back home. 

You have different responsibilities and things to worry about. So I will not urge you to do things/demand things. You have to celebrate this day with someone else. I will never come forward and hurt you again sweetheart. Instead I will remain silent and listen to this silence. Don't forget all the good memories that are still with me. So.... A few final words. I left FB. I don't go there frequently. 

I have bought a plant. Today I will plant it. For the past few years, I have planted numerous plants on special days in our lives (Our story). 

I wish you a happy birthday sweetheart. I wish you everything but the best (Much happiness, many smiles, many children and endless joy and, finally, health). 

I miss you so much. I wish I could see you once more. I definitely don't want to bring the old memories back to you and hurt you once more. So, I will keep my distance. Stay safe sweetheart. Take care of yourself. I will write again.