9th April

Im sorry Baba. Internet worst these days . I was trying to write. Powercuts and poor mobile signals same time. I miss you here. I have to go through a new year wothout you. I hope you remember the 2017 new year. We were that happy. Just after the new year day, you went to Kurunegala to meet your Cousin's family. I miss you this time. Sure I will miss you for the rest of my life. I wish if could hold your hand and walk. Go for some shopping. Buy some gifts. Instead im having a painful strange feeling of being forgotten. Im not angry with you. Someday if you get a chance to read my Ideas, please remember and think that I was in excruciating pain. I know you went Through the same. I will take this pain. I deserve it and I whisper it to my self always. Also remember Baba I love you always. I had my love to you always. I will have that love to you untill my last breath. I will find this love again someday again. I promise I will not make a mess. Remember I always love you. If I was a cunning, selfish and a cruel person I wont be having this pain. Im in pain. Please take care Baba. I miss you. 

April 7

Baba. New year is so closer. We didnt go for shoping. Instead we are trying to cure our hearts. I have no cure to my heart. It has pains physically and emotionally. Remember the time when I had a chest pain? I hope so. I remember how your mom once got ill. Please take care of her too Baba. I remembered you a lot. I missed you a lot. I will miss you forever. Remember how you got ill end of april after  heavy rains. Please stay safe sweet. Take care. 

April 6

I hope you are fine Baba. I travelled through our memory lanes. I saw the places where we were spending time. Remember once I told that im ready to give my kidney if you needed. May you took it silly. You are probably thinking how fake was I. Its okay. But yet that will is within me. Dont get sick. Dont be ill. If you need it consider me. Im always ready. No matter where am I. When the call comes, I will be there. Im a terrible person I know. Yet I have love too. Im not going to delete, or kill my love within me. It will be there forever. I will keep my love forever. Im totally in pain Baba. Im Burning in pain. I know i deserve this. And im happy to accept this. Im so sad to bot seeing you. Im so sad because I cant hear you. Please be safe Baba. Tc

4th April.

ලයිට් නැහැ ඉන්ටෙර්නෙට් නැහැ. රැවෙනකන් වැඩ බබා. මට ඔයාව නිතර මතක් වෙනවා. මම ඔයාව නිතර-
මතක් කරනවා. නිදිමතයි ගොඩක්. එත් අදත් ඔයාට සටහනක් නොතිය නින්දට යන්න මට බැහැ.
මට ඔයාව අමතක කරන්න උවමනාවක් කවදාවත් තිබුනේ නැහැ. මම එහෙම නරුමයෙක්නම් මම මෙහෙම ඔයා-
මතක් කරමින් මෙහෙම සටහන් තියයිද බබා? මට ඔයාව දකින්න ඇහෙන්නත් නැහැ. නමුත් මම ඔයාගේ-
මතකය ඇතුලේ ජිවත් වෙනවා. මට කවදාවත් අපේ අතීතය අමතකත් නැහැ. ඒවගේමයි මට ඔයාව අමතක වෙන්නෙත් නැහැ.
i miss you like im mad. I waited to write this a lot. internet suck worse today.
please take care Baba.

April 3rd

I remembered you whole day. I feel the way you forget me. Kind of touching and aching my heart. I miss you a lot. I was late to write because I had a function in the work place. Remember the time just I arrived to work here? Your words were so helpful. I remembered those times Baba. Dont tell me that I neber loved you. Dont tell that Im not loving you. I will always keep the love to you. Hate me baba. Hurt me, blame me or torture me. I will not stop my heart. I will love you forever. Remember the time when I sent a selfy every morning before leaving for work? You did the same. You sent a selfy at work place. That picture made my day lucky and worthy. My favourite tie was a gift from you. Still im taking care of it. It makes me lucky. I just want to tell I missed you a lot throughout my life. I remained forever heart broken baba. I keep a smile to the public. Im crying within. I miss you. 

2-April

How are you Baba? I wish I could see you and ask you directly. I have no rights now. And I have no privilege. I wish you good. And I hope you are fine. As I always mentioned I remember you a lot.
Saw a picture (quote. Like to see it?)

I felt and remember the same way. Blame me, insult me, hit me as much as you can. I deserve them all. You cant say I never loved  you. Please dont insult me that way.  Kill me if you want but dont say so. Only I know what I have inside my heart. I miss you. My heart and brain sing your name like a life long song. Please take care. 

April.

Our love always asked us. Why we couldn't meet earlier? Finally, why did we meet? I fell in love with you soon. I began to love everything in you had Baba. Not only your character but also your feelings. Loved your smell. Smelled your hair. I still remember you were so ignorant at the beginning. You didnt care what I said a lot. But I said everything what could make you beautiful Baba. I never intended to harm you. I forgave every thing. You did hurt me sometimes. I had nothing which I couldn't forgive you. I always forgave and found a way to love you. I have to say Baba I tried to give you good. I never wanted to distort your character. I remember everything. April starts. I miss those shopping. I miss those walks. I miss those smiles. I miss you. Please remember Baba someday If you see all this (I wish so), I loved you till the end of my life. And I promise you Baba I will find you. I will come closer to you. I miss you. So April started. Take care.