I always hate goodbyes.

We were at the bus station. They leave for Belgorod. She kissed me many times and told her love to me. My heart cried. Grand mother said sorry for her blames to me and if something bad happened to me from her. “Charith! I think you leave soon; you won’t meet me again for a long time. Sorry if there is any bad memory!” I ran out of words. She bought a many buns and told me go to hostel and eat. Don’t stay in hunger. I didn’t know what to say. Was it a good bye forever? Anyway I always hate goodbyes. I promised her that we meet again. I didn’t try to discuss much about the thing that I leave around February 24. Life flows.  

After a brain wash.

Actually best letter in posts from a medical student is not the 100^th letter of the blog. Finally medical student has finished his medical student’s life. In the animal world it is similar to a larva of a frog. The larva matured and ready to leave the swamp.

Actually when I gave my Hippocratic oath, I understood majority of the people don’t have a clear idea about the oath. What I understood is oath itself have no wide idea. Because of that Hippocratic oath edited. As an Asian I was shy to give Hippocratic Oath. Why? Proved history of my country is more than 2500 years. Giving the name “father of medicine” is just to satisfy the western world. Many asian countries have the same basis of intervention in to human illnesses. Actually Asians were the group of people who tried to cure body and mind. We knew the real connection between the body and mind. Through this we understood there is no animal that can live alone. Modern people use an heavy word “Man is a social animal”. I can burst in to pieces by laughing. America, and Russia haven’t many agreement about many social, historical, political, scientific and psychological theories. Amazingly they both say Hippocrates is the father of medicine. Every idiot accepts it because they taught it to us. How the people before Hippocrates lived? Simply they became ill and died? This is one of the man made errors in history of modern medicine.

When I was learning in my first year’s one teacher insulted my country asking how many Nobel prices won by my country. Today as a student graduated from the same institution which they graduated I would like to ask did you give the courage to get the Nobel price. At least a bit of courage? When we mark how the Nobel price divided in the world each year it’s clear this is a price for European people. If any doubt just mark them on a map. Tell you it’s very funny to see aunsan suki won the Nobel price. Why? Actually she has to births. 1) in Myanmar, 2) after university education in UK. Real reason for the price comes from UK. Actually the real meaning and value of Nobel price is not demonstrated. Nobel price kind of a Joke these days. Especially after Obama won it.  He won it for peace and the most interesting thing is he did nothing for Peace.

Actually on my graduation day what I can say to western teachers (Teaching by force) please go sit and watch the Gangnam style. See you all are the same. You shawed us Gangnam styles.

Latter one.

For the first time I’m writing a letter to my blog out of Kursk. I started my blog in Kursk. An unforgettable period of time, which is filled by many sad memories. I came to Stroitel. A small city which is situated in Belgorod city (Oblast). Finished the exam and I’m on my new-year vacations. Soon I should face to my placticle skills exams and Examination of medical scenarios. Then we are ready to go home. I felt a funny discomfort in my chest. I thought it’s all over and it is the way to an end. Grandmother who is treating me in the Russian house is a nice person. The world has made a bad picture about our countries. So they had such ideas also. It’s not time to deal with those problems. So I kept my silence hare.  When I see my way in retrospection I see some little things which I couldn’t do. My mind takes the chance to argue with in me about the past, which I shouldn’t be worried.  History always stays as the time we passed. History is a book which gives us many lessons.  One of my teachers once told us “Dear students assume if we can stop and shutdown all the processes of present and go back to history and change the things and live the life”. I know this is a thing practically impossible. Think about the human feelings and the thoughts which generated words. Everyone like to do something better then and live happily. I laughed at my teachers idea about shutting down the future, go back and start all from the beginning. I laughed at the idea because I was a kind of an idiot because thought about my teacher’s wise word scientifically. Finally I got the idea. It’s about happiness. Good health and the happiness, the greatest teaching to a formal person living on earth. We always think we are getting wise but the wise people always think where those wise people have gone. World change rapidly and same thing happen to us. We are taught to believe in science. Science has the same base which the religion stands. No one like to show the basement of science.

Have you ever thought what happen when person comes to a point when memories flood, future become uncertain and present is a fist of smooth dusty sand which cannot grab and escape between the fingers. Mentioned place is the actual point where I live right now.

In To custody. (From Russia with love, sadness and tears )

This week current Russian government took three more government opposition activists in to custody. If the current government is fully satisfied by the previous presidential election such a out come is not a normal one. Here the current Russian government clearly shows the fear which appearing in the government and  ONE RUSSIA political party. The fear is about increasing negativity towards the government attitudes in the society. Russia is a country holds 150 million population. If the government always the winning team and not afraid to opposition political parties this shouldnt be the way to give an answer. Last week media reported Russian secret services captured political opponents of ONE RUSSIA party in Ukraine capital. Till now the captured are without trace.
CNN report about arrested political opponents  

Losing information freedom.

This week china blocked the NEW YORK TIMES website. The reason was it has reviled the rich life style of the Chinese government officials. Information restriction has become a major issue in current politics. Recently Russia also thinking to develop such a fire wall to restrict some website in WWW. This consideration was taken after statics have shown the fall of fame of Putin in last few years. Also loss of support to the ONE RUSSIA political Party. There was a discussion in parliament to block WIKIPEDIA recently. Under the huge fame of WIKI the blocking couldn’t be carried. There are some of the major websites including FB on the discussion desk. Letter ends with a quote by JFK.

A nation that is afraid to let its people judge the truth and falsehood in an open market is a nation that is afraid of its people.

CNN news letter about blocking newyork times 

Oak and the love

Once to an annual magazine I wrote an article. It was a short story.  It was written on a old copy book. Few years later I was sitting in a café with my Russian girl friend. She told me that her love is exactly a big beautiful Oak tree. That time I didn’t know the Russian word for the Oak tree. Then I told about my small story about an Oak tree and gardener. Then she translated the Russian word and showed the English meaning. The translation was “Oak”. We were amazed. Then the unpublished story about the Oak tree, gardener and their love I gave to her as a gift. Few months later I saw some Oak trees around the stadium MERKURI. I collected their seeds and brought in to the room and I planted few seeds. See! They are growing, outside weather autumn. My small oak trees are growing in my hostel room. I love them as the gardener loved to Oak tree. This is the new symbol of love in my love story and it is growing.