21st September 2019.

Many Saturdays will pass. Sweetheart someday you will leave for a new lofe with someone. Dont worry I will be waiting here. I will wait here till the end of my life. I will find you too someday.(our story began a long long times a go. Our history extend beyond time. You and I) Im a person who is beyond tolerable. Im a person who is too notorious to be loved. Im a stone. A cold hearted. This year will soon be end.
Today morning im seeing a very sad thing Baba. I doubt life a lot. Remember I loved animals a lot? Especially the dogs. I was feeding another dog (not the one at my work place)  Its a female. She lived with a dog. A beautiful couple. She was pregnant too. Today morning found her dead at roadside. Her husband (lucky) cries. That is life. Remember the song by Namal Udugama. The song you got also sensitive? "NIHANDAWELA". Lucky (dog sits alone).
Im in pain. And today morning my pain is so severe. I miss you a lot. Please take care your self Baba. Pls pls pls..

20th September 2019

I remembered you today early morning. I think you are already on your way to work. I remember you like im mad. Its okay! mad is better. I feel better in my madness. My heart and brain sings your song. You are a masterpiece music which continuously singing inside me. I miss you a lot.
You might think what a jerk am I. I was helpless too. I was in pain too. I didnt know what to do next. I totally lost my mind in making decisions. Probably all the decisions I made were so upsetting. I was wrong. I acted like im a stone but im not. I cant help loving you. You will be mine forever Baba. I will keep loving you forever. Forget me. Hate me. Yes Im a bad guy in love. I lost my way. I lost all my instincts about living but can't I love? I will keep loving you forever. I know this is hard. Whats the meaning of a life without difficulties. I love you. Take care.

19th September 2019.

Went to a nearby place. I was watching the sunset. Remember the evenings when I sent pictures of sunset to you? Remember how you appreciate them? You said im a good photographer. I dont know Baba. May be I was a photographer but I was a crappier lover. Remembered how you smiled. Remember how you tried to make a web page for me. Everything is in my head. I dont have a way to proceed. Im kind of stuck. Like a computer. You know about computers better than me. I wish we lived like others. Im also thinking why we didn't meet earlier too. May be you already made your mind to some extents. You may ask whats the meaning of living with me. I have only one answer. Because I love you. You need a better reason than that? Because you are mine! Whats the better reason other than love? Take care Baba.

18th September 2019.

I did something good. I dedicate the credit/good name of the deed to your name. You inspired me to work here. You are the only one said something good and valuable about my working station. I still remember how did I work long hours to make a weekend be freed. How desperate was I to see you. I work sometimes 4 Days continuously. I got a severe headache thereafter. I felt that pain like a reward. A reward to our love. Because I feel that pain as a pleasure. Doing something behalf of you and being in pain was something new to me. I keep remembering those days. Because those were the best days. How pleasant was it to hold your hand and walk in torington or at waters edge? I still remember like it was yesterday. I hope you are fine sweetheart. I miss you a lot. Im in pain.

17th September 2019. 2nd post (1pm)

Time is 12 58pm. You are about to start your work after lunch. Remember how we enjoyed chatting within these few minutes in your luch hour. I remember all of it. Remembered you a lot today. Those memories are with me. Forever!. You are my queen, my angel and my princess forever. Above all you will be my foreve love. You are my one. I miss you a lot. Im in love and im in pain. I know I have to go through this. 

17 September 2019

For get me for one minute. Then for an hour. Again for a day. Someday you will be able to forget me forever. I cant stop that. Bad memories will be erased. Same will happen to me. Im the worst thing possibly happened to you. Im the worst nightmare you have ever seen. You will forget me somehow or other. Im not urging you to remember me. Im asking to remember the love. Remember it like a feeling.(im not imposing laws. I have no right to do so.) I remember the fragrance of your hair. It will be remembered till the last moment of my life. Baba we didnt met incidentally. We were waiting to meet a long time. We meant to be met this life. I was a notorious person thats the bad thing. Because of me you got hurt. I will search for you again. I will be suffered throughout Sansara for hurting you. I will find you somehow. I love you a lot. I miss you. 

16th September 2019.

I dont know how to measure the rate of time. Anyway it is too fast. Im writing this around 6.25am. Probably you just came out from the bath. May be taking a hair dressing. I have no intention to hurt you further sweetheart. Everyone one will forget me. Even you have to forget me. Otherwise you will be in pain Baba. Only thing what I want you to remember is the the love (I dont urge you to. But if you remember me someday please think that I lived because of you. I lived to love you. Loved you until the very end of my life.)
Yes I know it was a bad dream. A nightmare to you. Im sorry for being that crappier character. I never intended to hurt you. Love is the only thing I felt. I miss you a lot. Someday I will be a better character. Its hard. This life torturing me. I have to wait though. Please take care your self.