5th March 2020

Im writing this around 3.45pm. 15 minutes more to finish your duties. Dont think that I have forgotten you sweetheart. Im Keeping my silence because I love you a lot. Im silent because I have the highest respect for you. Im silence because I dont want to see you crying anymore.
Take care.

5th of March 2020

Keep your promise sweetheart. Dont leave me here alone ever. 

5th of February 2020

I felt everything all the time. Though we were separated I felt the distance which were developing between us. Im talking about the distance between our hearts. I know I was a terrible lover. I was a rude person to you. But you loved me. You were an Angel to me Baba. I will always have a great gratitude for what you let me feel and The way you loved me. I don't have a will to be recovered. Let me be damaged and broken. If I have to recover I have to move on. But I dont want. I dont want to forget you. How can I forget the sweetest thing I ever had in my life? I haven't seen you for years now. I haven't heard from you for a long time. This isnt easy Baba. Trust me im in an endless pain. Im suffering. Im smiling to outer world like im a happy person. I hope you are fine Baba. I miss you..

4th February 2020

Sweetheart time is passing. You started a new life. And sure Im about to be forgotten forever. I feel an enormous pain inside my mind. Being most beloved and falling to this level is like a fall from the skies. There are many endeavours to explore in your new life. Hope you are happy Baba. I wish your happiness more than anything else. Someday sooner you will raise children. You will be a mother. The time and the circumstances will urge you to erase memories. Especially memories about me. Or you will see the relative unimportant features about those memories. I want you to be happy Baba. If you really want to forget me there is nothing to do. Im not urging you to keep me inside you. Im a person who couldn't recognise love. Blame me and hate me if you want. I have lot of love for you. Till the end I will live inside my memories. Same way I will not stop loving you. I miss you a lot.

3rd February 2020

Im writing this around 12.30am Baba. Im doing a 24 hour duty today. I was so tired. Fell in to a sleep at once. And suddenly after midnight I remembered you. Here Im writing a letter to you. I kind of lost my self in January end. I know Baba. Nothing could be done. May be this is my destiny. May be a sad one. Probably no one would remember me someday. Should I stay calm. What should I do Baba? Tell me. You want me to forget you?. Never. You lives in me. And Im living inside you. I miss you a lot. I pray daily for your wellbeing. Take care Baba

2nd of March 2020

Sorry weetheart I was late write this note. Anyway I haven't forgotten you. I couldn't write this because I was helping someone. I did it behalf of you. Because you are the one who encouraged me to come here and serve people. Cant you remember the March 1st? I took that painful walk to a rural area in a March. I miss you a lot Baba. I hope you are fine. 

1st of March 2020

Since our separation I haven't visit Colombo frequently. Because I feel enormous pain and a sadness when I travel through those places. I visited when it was a vital necessity only. Once I visited your workplace even. I didnt try to interfere. I didnt want to make things worse for you. It was actually in December. I was passing closer and just stopped for a while. I felt you (as I always do). By the way one of my friends told me there are many new places to walk dine and enjoy. Said colombo is changing quickly. Hope you enjoy Baba. Enjoy  whenever you can. I miss you a lot. Today a Sunday. You know how painful was it to take the bus around 6pm and leave you. You and I know the pain. February ended. March first today. What do you remember today Baba? Nothing special? Well there is something special today. Nothing to celebrate though. March 1st was a memorable day.
Take care. Love you.