18th February 2022

 Thought I forgot you? No.. No... Never.

I didn't forget you. Instead I remembered you many times. I was in a night extra duty. A little late but came home and posting this. How come I forget the first day when I saw your innocent eyes? Yea Baby you were so mischievous. Thats fine. Im sure you have forgotten this day. But long time ago we met for the first time. You didn't keep your word so I had to come and take you home. I miss you a lot Baba. I never wanted to let my little angel out there in between a group of drunken nuts. I still love you. Im keeping my voice low. I don't want to hurt you. Don't forget! yet my heart calls your name. You will alway be mine. You will be my forever valentine. Forever.

I miss you a lot. Stay strong and stay safe sweetheart. I miss you and I'm sorry. Love you. 

09th January 2022

 Happy new year sweetheart. I'm just writing because I wanted to show you that I haven't forgotten you. I will not forget us. I remembered you because I was thinking how we were chatting like two little birds. January was so interesting. In February we met for the first time. I wanted to ask about your secret santa. Anyway I will not get an answer. So I refrained. I hope you are fine Baba. Take care.

20/12/2021. (That day which you want to forget)

 Remember that dark day in 2018. I remember every thing sweetheart. Im sure that was the worst pain a honest girl could ever face. That happened to you. I remember you a lot especially today. Time passes. And time pased. More times to come. I want you to have a happy life sweetheart. I honestly feel bad about the way I acted. Im not writing now too much because I don't want to hurt you further. If you see this you will remember all of it again and get upset. I know you have moved on. I want you to be happy. Also, I want you to stay safe Baba. All my good good memories about you and us are yet with me. Thats the only thing I have for now. Still remember those weekends which we were walking together. I miss you a lot. I still live inside you. I will stay there forever. I hope aunt and uncle also doing fine. I wish the safety and the happiness of your family. Don't forget I love you forever (though I messed it up). Recently I visited all the places where we were walking in Torrington area. My eyes were blurred. I felt how real was all those moments. How hard it was to leave you in tge evenings. How hard was it to leave in Sunday evening. Remember I took a bus around 6pm. Fights erupted because of the pain. I loved you sweetheart. I have many errors in my hands. I still love you though. You will be mine forever. I don't want to hurt you though. I wish if I could see you once more. At least remotely. I wish.... You got hurt a lot because of me. I was wrong but honestly I felt your pain. Im still in pain. Im sorry. Stay safe. Planning to plant a tree. I will remember you forever. I will plant trees for you I wish they will grow taller because of our love. I miss you. Its December 20th 2022.  ❤️❤️❤️

13th August 2021.

 I hope you are fine. People said trees which I have planted in your birthdays are already on their maximum growth. Soon they will be huge trees. Forget me. Thats okay Baba. Im sure Im the only one who plant a tree (I planted 3-4 in your birthdays. In three separate occasions) in your birthday. I wish you the best. Take care yourself. 

12th August 2021.

 Sweetheart. I hope you are fine. May be you already have children now. May be. I'm staying silent. I dont want to break your heart again. Just remembered of the worst things I did was break ypur heart and flew overseas. It was a August 8th. I remembered but I didn't write. Im sorry for hurting you. I remember you always. I wish you everything but the best Baba. You stay safe these days. Take your vaccine. Hope mother and father also doing fine.

I wish your safety sweetheart. Take care. 

01st of July 2021.

 Im not writing frequently now. May be you are thinking that I have forgotten you. Sweetheart how come I forget you?

I read a book this week. I felt terrible to know in depth how people feel things when they are heartbroken. Im heartbroken and the sadest thing is I was the reason of your broken heart. I felt sad and bad.

I really wanted to see you. But sweetheart I will not bring that pain back to you. Im sure that you are happy now. Im sure that you have forgotten me. I don't want to bring the memories about me back in to your life. I really loved you. I really love you. And I will not stop loving you. You are mine forever. I will wait Baba. I will be a better person. I promise that I will not hurt you again. I will stay in silence forever probably. I don't want to hurt you. I never liked to see you hurt. 

I miss you a lot. 

Happy birthday sweetheart.

 I remembered you a lot on your birthday. I remembered how you were happy to receive a birthday gift from a beloved person. Sweetheart I did some smaller donations to poor. I wished your health and wealth. May the tripple gem bless you always. I wish if I could hold your hand and take a walk in the streets which we were walking usually. Again I want to wait at Thummulla junction till you arrive. Some times you waited there for me. All those places have memories about us. I know you have forgotten things. It's okay. Hard to keep unpleasant/bad memories forever. Am I fully forgotten sweetheart? No memories about me? I always remember you. And I always think "is it worthy to stay in silence?". May be you will hear/feel my silence someday. Silence is also beautiful. I don't want to hurt you again Baba. All the memories are with me forever. With all due respect I will keep my love forever. Hope your mother, father and your husband also fine. I wish you a long, healthy and a joyful life. I wish everyone else of your family the same. So Baba. I didn't forget you. Remember me someday (though Im the worst memory you have).

Take care yourself.