Sunday morning.

I was somewhat sick Baba. Im sorry. Thats the reason I couldnt write. I was bed bound with a high fever and a headache. I was kind of afraid too. Because I remembered you Baba. Please stay away from harmful areas. Please dont caught again with dengue. I remembered you a lot. I know im not even in your memories. Anyway It cant prevent me from thinking of you. I hope you are fine Baba. I know now you are all away from memories about me. Im not trying to blame. I will try to manage the sorrow. How can I forget you? And why should I forget you. Even im incapable of forgetting those precious memories. Few times a day or many times per day im keep running that memory tape in my mind. I miss you. I know the pain you took Babia. Im in pain too. Are be bound to pain?  I got up at 5am today. Remembered you. Well what if yesterday was a day which we could meet? Thats the best thing happened in me. I hurt you im sorry. Im wasn't planning to hurt you Baba. I had no intentions to hurt. I felt the energy to love you. And I did. I promise I will forever. This morning all those smiles we had in my memories, im celebrating  them. I dont want to forget you. If you see this someday please understand I was in pain too. Im living with pain. If I was the selfish jerk (I am. I know that. But am I totally a jerk?) I wont be this upset about anything this much. I feel sad too. I miss you. I cant see or hear you. Take care Baba. Please be safe.