20th December. A sad day sweetheart. I had no intentions of hurting you. Still, I think of you most of the time. I feel terrible about the way you got hurt for loving me. I still love you as the first day. Or even more. I know that you moved on. We have our memories. I have our memories in my mind. I will live inside those memories till the end. I know that you are happy. That's good. I don't demand you to recall all the bad memories about me and the way I hurt you. Am I totally forgotten? I'm no good. I know that. Didn't I have good qualities, Baba? I feel how terrible I was. Anyway, time has passed. I'm writing because I still remember you (I don't want to forget you) . I'm writing because I will never forget you. I feel like I'm still living somewhere in your memories (I know those memories are dark). I still believe that we belong to each other. Yea, you will say "Nonsense!". Maybe not this time. I don't know what's happening, Baba. I know that I loved you. And I still do. Also, I messed up things. I hope you are fine. I wish you everything but the best. May you be healthy and happy. May you enjoy the laughter of children. May your family be a joyful one. May your parents live long (Give my regards to auntie Ashoka.). Time is a machine. Take care sweetheart. I still love you. You can't stop me from loving you. I will remain on this side. I'm keeping my silence because I don't want to hurt you again. I never tried to reach you or come closer because I'm nothing but a huge pain. Anyway, the final thing, I do love you. I will find you someday Baba. Stay safe. Stay strong! I rarely write or come to the web because it hurts me a lot. That's fine. Take care. I did few good things today.
I will write again.
