31st December 2020

 It's the new year eve. I haven't forgotten you Baba. Im just remembering each and every good memory we had together. See how fast  the time is flying. There is no way back. Every moment we spent was a memory. Im working today. A day with heavy rains. I remembered how we held our hands together. Those memories will live inside me forever. I still love you. I didn't write because you moved on and I dont want to disturb you. Im nothing more than another pain to you. I know that. Someday I will find you Baba. I will keep my love forever. In heavy rains I took this picture. I planted this to remember you. I miss you in New year eve. Tc

20th December 2020

 Sweetheart its December 20th. This is the  day which I left you. Truly its my fault. I don't want you to remember the past and give you the coldest possible feeling which a soul can tolerate. Anyway it was a December 20th. That day came. Heavy rains going here like someone is crying. It wasn't easy for me too. Since then my heart is suffering by pains. I will be in pain forever. And I want you to know that I still love you. I know that you have moved on in your path. I know you have found your happiness. Its okay. You have to. Just remember! I didn't end my love anyway. You will be loved forever. I wish I could run toward you and say I love you. Hold your hand and walk in those greenish roads in colombo.

I know I will not be ables to get the same chance again. I ruined my opportunity.

I miss you a lot today Baba. Take care. 

19th December 2020

 Let the memories flood. I remembered you sweetheart. I did love you. And I always will. You will be loved always.

18th December 2020

After skipping many days, Im writing to you just to let you know that I haven't given up faith in you. I was totally a disgrace to love. I know my faults. I will suffer for them forever. Im waiting here in this side of the river sweetheart. I know you have left the scene. You have abandoned all the hope and the memories. Im just staying hopefully and tidy because I want to stay somewhere inside you. May be in your heart? Since August I didn't write you here. I was so confused and frustrated. I couldn't forgive my deeds. I didn't give a try either. Anyway I stayed silent intentionally. I was silent not because I forgot you but because I felt that you moved on. Times I wanted to shout and say your name and say "you are mine!" was numerous. I stayed silent instead because O didn't hurt my little angel again. You are my angel forever. you loved me. Im a person difficult to handle sweetheart. Im a person difficult to tolerate. I remember sometimes how painful words did I said to you. I couldn't appologize. I left everything that early and I didn't have time. I was wrong. I didn't mean any of those words. I was in pain. I just didn't want to torture you anymore. I loved you though Baba. I still love you. And I will love you forever. I still remember our daily schedule. I still get up around 4.55am. I remember how there was a good morning message everyday. How you left home around 6.30am and reached bus stop around 6.41am. I remember everything Baba. I miss you a lot. Love you. 

5th August 2020

 So the time goes Baba. I miss you a lot. I dont come here a lot now. But you are always remembered. Like my breath you are always with me. 

4th of August 2020

 I miss you a lot sweetheart. How fast is the time? Days turned to weels and them month. Years, decades and centuries. We all know a human would survive nearly 70years. This isnt a long time after all. I dont know sweetheart I feel so upset when I feel that the most beloved persons in my life only has some bad memories about me. I want go through time and correct everything. You want a "we never met" scenario. I dont know how you would intepret things. Anyway I will whole my life for that one year. I will lose it for one breath through a flock of your hair. Dont think that I have forgotten you. Mever ever. My posts are shorter because my heart keeps saying that no one hear/care me further. Its hard to digest the fact that Im not in your heart now. People say beloved person can be seen through eyes. Am I? I love you. 

3rd of August 2020

 Cried last night. History should not be repeated. We should be together forever.

2nd of August 2020

 

1st of August 2020. How I felt you.

This song explains the exact way how I felt you sweetheart. Time passed. We are like strangers. I wish I could see you once again. Im not allowed and Im not that privileged. I miss you. 

 

30th of July 2020

Time urge you to forget me Baba. I will not be angry. How can I be angry? Im the wrong one. Im the one who hurt you. Its okay sweetheart. Just stay happy. Smile.
I miss you. 

29th July 2020 (2nd Post)

Some day sweetheart. Someday. I miss you always.
Someday....... 

29th July 2020

No one would believe thatI loved you sweetheart. And hurt you and you lost the faith in me. Now I dont have a way to prove a love. I miss you a lot though. Every night I see something about you. You are always in my dreams and I dont ask why. I know the reason already. I miss you a lot my little Angel. Love you. Stay happy. Smile always. 

28th July 2020

I know you are on your way to work by now. Probably you are passing or closer to Rattanapitiya. Many memories in my mind. Smiles, jokes, sweet words to the bitter comments and our love story. I miss you a lot Baba. Remember how hard was the July and August? Im so sorry. 

26th July 2020

And time can do so much.
Are you still mine?
(no words to explain the facts and the thoughts turning around my mind and the head sweetheart. Only my eyes get wet. And I dont want show them to anyone. I miss you a lot.).

25th July 2020

I knew the way you felt sweetheart. Without exception I knew the pain you went through because of me. I have no excuses my little angel. I have only our memories now. Everyday I wish and I pray for your health and wealth. Wish you everything but the best. I feel terrible. I haven't changed my love and affection to you Baba.

24th July 2020

You were the everything which I had. You will forever be that one. I will stay in silence. I will stay in dark. My heart is with you forever sweetheart. 

23rd July 2020

Time is passing. So do our memories. They flow. I think you dont remember them. I know I cant give to convince you to remember them. Im the pain in all those memories. I left you alone. I broke your heart. You were crying helplessly. I was like a stone cold hearted person left you. I never wanted you to suffer because of me Baba. I had my reasons. Now I understand above everything comes love. Now I have become a person who kicked out the love from my life. I miss you so much Baba. And this life is damn hard to live. We both suffered. Im still suffering. Im broken forever. You are the only person who could at least heal me to some extent. Love you. 

22nd ofJuly 2020

Night always has some feeling about a loneliness. I remembered you a lot tonight. Because I remember how I was talking with you in nights and went here and there in my working environment/workplace. This lonely short walk seems like this at night Baba. I wish I could hold your hand. I miss you.

21st July 2020

Sweetheart will my pain be declined someday? Will my prayers be answered? Will you be there to hold my hand once more? One last time?
I miss you.

20th July 2020

I kmow how you felt in the day I walked away. I felt only like I was right. I only felt that I should walk away or you would suffer a lot. I didn't try to be you and think the way it would feel. I think I was wrong. But all in all the wayI had nothing more than a love to you. I never wanted to go but I left. I was a stone. Cold-hearted one. Im sorry Baba. I know you exactly felt this way. Feeling have no language. I miss you. 

19th July 2020

Someday I will be right in front of you holding a bunch of red roses. And will you say that word again Baba? Will you accept those roses and the fragrance of our love. We met long before. Not in this life. Im sorry for hurting you. I miss you a lot.

18th July 2020

That smile made my day isn't with me now. Now I remember the good old days a lot. The time we spent together is like a fairy tale. You were my queen. Now I see your smile but it isn't mine. Im lucky though, because I was the owner of that smile at least for a shorter while. Miss you Baba. Tc. 

17th July 2020

All the best Baba. May you be the happiest soul in the world. You will always be my queen. You will always be the one. The one and only. There is no requests to remember me. You can go forward Baba. I miss you. I will love you forever. 

16th July 2020

Someday I will be no one to you Baba. I dont urge you to remember me. But in general keep in mind that you've been loved. In someone's heart you are a queen forever. Someone's heart beats every second behalf of you. Somone wishes at least a glimpse of you. Someone miss you like they miss a heart beat daily basis. I loved you then. And I will love you forever. 

14th July 2020

 I miss you a lot Baba. Nothing is ever forgotten. Its not over either. I miss you a lot. 

13th July 2020

You will call me mad. But I have to say that it wasn't just a madness. Its been mad because of love. Love blinds people. Same way love heals people. You were my healer. You could love me. You could love to a notorious person. I always thankful for that love you offered Baba. I miss you a lot. I wish if I could meet you. Love you always. 

12thJuly 2020. Forget me if you want Baba.

Forget me if you want. I will never hate you for that. I was tge wrong one. Im still the wrong one. I still love you though. I miss you Baba.

I saw this in a web page.-
True love cannot be found where it does not truly exist, nor can it be hidden where it truly does. – Kissing A Fool

11th of July 2020

Im doing something. Something you admired too.

10th July 2020

Im so so late to write. But I will not stop writing. Like I will not stop loving.
I miss you Baba.

9th July 2020

Im not over Baba. I still love you.

8th July 2020

As you always loved beautiful views

7th July 2020

Came to a Pizza Hut. Im spending few minutes. Im surrounded by numerous memories. I miss you a lot Baba. I know now you definitely want to forget me. I have no other choice Baba. I will stay silent. I will not stop loving you though. Take care. 

6th July 2020

Im urging you to remember me. Im not forcing you to forget me too. I know time will delete those memories anyway. Do you have a good memory about me? Do you?
Im just asking baba. Im doing my best to remain in a corner in your heart. I know you will not be allowed. Will you throw me out? I miss you a lot. 

5th July 2020

After all I will be somethings suitable to be forgotten. Our love also be forgotten? Those roads we were walking will be forgotten? Those evenings at water's edge will be forgotten? What an strange thing is time. It brought us joy and happiness. Its separated us too. Im wrong too. I know. I remember the way you cried. Im sorry. I love you. 

4th July 2020

Im in pain sweetheart. Its. Okay I will keep all our memories with me. You be happy. I was sp happy whenever I saw a smile on your face. You are my sunshine forever. Tc

4th July 2020

Stay happy sweetheart. Wherever you are doesn't matter I will always love you. Im sorry for being a miserable person. I never intended to hurt or take an advantage of you. Yea my behaviour was wrong. I know. I loved you a lot though. Even for today I love you more that everything. I miss you a lot. 

4th July 2020

I was happy when the Bamboo got two buds. Im happy because its growing. Planted behalf of you. Only later I knew it symbolised something and tried to give me a message. Tc Baba.

3rd of July 2020

Writing this in a dark morning. We will get rains sometimes. Remember I came here in a rainy season. You encouraged me to come and work. I never intended to leave you sweetheart. Now you habe taken few vital decisions. And I know you will forget me thats something inevitable. Last noght was a long one. How I remembered everything. Like I was watching a movie. All the memories came in to my mind. There is nothing painful than this. I deserve some pain also Baba(For hurti you). I have to say baba I will not stop loving you. For the new journey ahead I ways wish you all the best. Remember me someday. I loved you till the last breath. You got muchh hurt. I got hurt too. But I never stopped loving you. Hope you are fine Baba. I miss you. 

2nd of July 2020.

So this day came finally. I have no words. I had only tears. Now I know why I saw you inmy dreams 28th June in a red dress. Now I know why yesterday your Bamboo plant gave two large buds at once suddenly. Now I know why I saw you frequently past few days. No tough feelings Baba. I had only love to you. I was wrong I know. But my intentions weren't against you. I didn't have an intention to hurt you. I know you got hurt though. I never planned to leave you. I never wanted to leave you. You think I shouldn't have loved you? I fell in love with you at first sight. I couldn't help falling in love. I loved you in every possible way. I tried to make you smile. Your Smile made my day.
Today you leave all those moments in past. You are entering to a new life. I got super hurt in January when I knew that you got engaged. You have to proceed I know. Im not urging you to wait for me. But Im letting you to know that I will wait for you. I will not stop loving you.

Well for today Im in excruciating pain. But this I deserve.
Anyway... Stay safe Baba. Stay happy. Enjoy your life. Be healthy.
You are the most adorable one in my life. You are the most loved. You are the sweetest.
I wish both of you a joyful life ahead. Many life endeavours will be there. I wish your success. I wish both of you good health.
Take care then.
Happy wedded life sweetheart. 

Missing you.

I will not let you leave me again. And I will not leave either. 

Love you so so much. I wish you all the best. 

1st of July 2020

Dont know what to say. Got the news sweetheart. What should I do? Let you go? Let you leave me? Let you forget me? Let my self be no one to you? Cried and cried. Hid from everyone and cried. Okay sweetheart. I know you will not be able to wait. And I never urge you. To wait either. You should move one. You should take a path. I will make my mind. I know im the wrong Person. I will love you forever. 

30th June 2020

Baba be safe when you travel here and there. Think about your safety a lot. I miss you. 

29th June 2020

Time will turn in to minutes, hours, days weeks, months and finally to years. Let it pass. Let centuries to be passed. I will not forget you. I will not forget our love.

28th June 2020

Im posting all my short messages and posts. I did write but I couldn't upload. Sometimes I had no mood and an energy. Because you were my energy but you aren't with me now. You were my better half. Forever you will be mine. I think I saw you last night. At leasts visit me in my dreams. Hate me it's okay. Blame me if you like but I will not stop loving you. Be mine some day Baba. Be. Mine. I will not lose you again. I promise. 

27th June 2020

If a jar become empty someone can fill it with a fluid. What if its life? Life is so strange sweetheart isn't it? Remember how jerky was I to you? No excuses. Now I dont have you by my side. You are far from me. And im kind of alone. I feel alone even in crowds. You are the missing part of my. Life. 

26th June 2020

Somewords same as our first meet. What a beautiful day. Like I was walking on clouds. Didn't hear how birds sang. It was only you and I.

25th June 2020

Man I saw you frequently in my dreams. Whats happening Baba? Hope you are fine. Please stay safe. Take care.
I always love you. And I miss you a lot

24th June 2020

Some people aren't so luck baba. I lost you. Bow im in pain. I wish I could run and grab your hand. Wish I could take a walk with you. I miss you a lot. 

23rd June 2020

You will always be in my prayers. Silent prayers will be heard to long distances. Our love will be remained forever. I miss you.

22nd June 2020

Im the wrong person Baba. I will miss you forever. And I will remain heartbroken forever. They way we felt will be a legend in time. I will not stop loving you. 

21st June 2020

If I never loved you BabaI wouldn't have written here daily. I wouldn't ask your love this much. Im a cruel person. I know. But didn't I love you? I still love you like I did always. Our love will grow like a treee in a forest. I love you

20th June 2020

20th June. Im writing short messages Baba. Im heartbroken. I have no clue about the way I should proceed. I miss you a lot. 

19th June 2020

May be I was wrong. May be I was cruel. But I always love you. 

18th June 2020

Found this in a corner of my pocket. Im heartbroken forever. This I wrote for you about 2 years ago. I miss you Baba

17th June 2020

I saw you last night. At least stay in my dreams. I will stay forever in a corner of your heart. Im your darkest dream. You loved a evil person like me. You are an angel. I miss you a lot

16th June 2020

You will be always remembered and kept in my heart. Dont think that O have forgotten you Baba. Im just keeping my silence. You know that you are mine forever. Im yours too. You would feel better in my silence. You will not feel a pain when im silent.
I miss you

14th June 2020

Forget me if you want sweetheart if its comforting. Forget me if you will not feel a pain. I miss you a lot. Tc

13th June 2020

I remembered how you enjoyed sunsets. I went to a place where I captured a sunset for you. You appreciated me a lot. Dont forget you will be my sunshine forever. This picture I dedicate for you. Love you Baba.(see the blue skies? There the place where freedom exists. We are two love birds and we were flying there.)

12th June 2020

When the time turns in to weeks, months, years,  and finally years there won't be a time for me left i side you. Theere wont be a space for me inside you. Naturally you will be asked to forget me forever. I miss you a lot sweetheart. I hope you would remember me though. Thats a wish or a prayer too. I won't hate if you I have forgotten me too. I miss you. 

11th June 2020

Hope you are on your way home. I know now you have someone to go home with. It was me long before. In a time you already forgotten because of the pain. I was your love joy and the pain. Im still yours. And I will be yours forever sweetheart. I will not stop loving you. I miss you a lot. Time will pass. Our story will be hidden in time. Hidden or not I will keep it in my mind. Someday come and say Hi Baba. Someday smile with me. Someday say a word. A blame also fine. I miss you. 

10th June 2020

Someone broke a branch in one of my (our) plants. I cried. My eyes got wet and i didn't even notice that I was silently crying. Quickly poured the water and I went home. Sweetheart Im living in your memories. Im living a life that no one would be able to live. Im in pain. Im walking in pain. I can scree our loud but im silent. Please remember I loved you the most though O was a bad person. Im still loving you (may be even more). Your name will sing in my heart till the last beat and last breath. Love you

9th June 2020

I remember tha good times, sorrows and the fights we had together. Everything has a good sense too. Im sorry for hurting you Baba. I never had an intention to hurt you. I never had an intention to leave you. Im so unlucky sweetheart. I promise you though. I will wait whatever the time it takes. I will wait for you. I will never end my love. I dreamed you. I wished you. You are mine. 

8th June 2020

I was totally hopeless and disappointed last few days. Number of times I remembered you was enormous. But there is nothing to prevent the time. I never hate you, insult you or condemn you Baba. Im so grateful for the love and the care you gave to me. I was a difficult guy to handle. I know that and I never deny it. Please don't think that I never loved Baba. I loved you alot. Eacch and every time I remember us my eyes getting wet. I love you a lot. And I miss you alot

7th June 2020

6th June 2020

Last night I saw you in a dream. I miss you a lot sweetheart. I promise that I won't stop loving you. 

5th of June2020

If someone say I didn't love you, open my heart and see! Im not a jerk! Im not a opportunity seeker. I loved you sweetheart. I loved you like im mad. I loved every beat of your heart. I heard your heart singing my name. I fell in love with you at the first sight. I never wanted to leave you. If you hate me thats okay. Its natural to hate a person like me. I just wanted to love you forever. Never wanted to leave. I had no second plans. Finally I was helpless. I will wait Baba. I wish you all the happiness in your life. And I will not stop loving you!! Today a poya day. Remember how we were planning to visit your temple? May the triple gems bless you and your family. May your parents live long. May this day be a blessed one to you. I miss you.
I remembered you a lot today. A lot. A lot of love too. Poured water to your birthday tree. Love you. 

4th June 2020

Hope you are going to work now. Today a curfew day. I bout the thing to update the blog frequently. I never want to miss a single moment. Every single moment in my life spent loving you. I will love you to the last breath. Song of our love/relationship is a sad one. But true love has no ending. I messed up in my love. I never stopped loving you. I jist couldn't drag you through a hard time. I didnt want to see you crying. I only know the pain I felt when you were crying on my lap. Love you. 

3rd of June 2020

I remembered how we were walking and shopping in Nugegoda. I enjoyed every single moment. Remembered how we went to MC in our first date. How come I forget the precious thing/person of my life. I lived a lifetime in a short period of time. It was with you. Thank you for offering me an unconditional and worthy love. I was a bad guy Baba. I had problems too. I never wanted to impose my problems and issues on you. I never wanted to leave you. Now im in pain. Stay safe sweetheart. I love you. I love you!!! 

2nd of June 2020

Im so sorry for delayed writings Baba. Im not doing this specially. Its hard to update using my old phone. This week im planning yo update all the posts. And upload them. I remembered you a lot. I haven't stopped loving you Baba.
I miss you a lot. 

1st of June 2020

June starts. Hope you are working these days. Hope you are going to work. Am I forgotten sweetheart? Dont you have a simple memory about me?
I just asked. Its okay if you have forgotten. Im not urging you to remember me. On the other hand Im thinking about you always. Remember those moments we had together. One more breath through your beautiful hair. I wish If I could feel. I miss you more than any other time. I hope you are fine Baba. I miss you a lot. Tc

31st May 2020

Time passes. I know you have forgotten me. I will not blame you for that. I think I was mad sometimes at you. I was cruel. I have to say this. I was totally in love with you though. I didn't want to hurt you sweetheart. You are the sweetest. You were mine. Forever you will be mine. I miss you so much. Love you

30th May 2020

This day will be gone. Who remembered?  Who cares? Time will pass sweetheart. I will not stop loving you though im just no-one to you. You will be in my memories forever. So this day ends. Memories will last. Same way I will be gone someday. At least will you be there to say one last good bye?
Time isn't the issue if I can wait. I will love you forever. Miss you a lot today.

29th May 2020

How could I be silent this evening.  How could I be left in dark tolerating these feelings. My mind is crying. My heart is broken. My heart deserves no mercy. Yet im in love with you. And Im broken.
Remember this eve sweetheart?we talked a lot. This is a memorable eve. Remember what we were talking? I still remember your voice. I still hear those words. Everything inside me filled with joy of keeping our memories. Im in pain but im happy at least I have all the memories about you. I kept my silence like a deep lake. I never spoke a word. I never made a single insult/joke against you. I will not ever too. Yet im keeping a deep love,gratitude and many sweet feelings about you. I miss you a lot. Let this evening be forgotten. I will remain in a universe of pain. Hope you are fine
Love you. 

28th May 2020

I miss you a lot.
I habe no words to express the feeling im keepong inside of me.
Love you sweetheart

27th May 2020

Whatever the language used doesn't matter pain is same for everyone. I was wondering how you went through this harsh thing called pain? Especially pain of losing someone is very tough. Im experiencing the same thing. I know that you moved on sweetheart. May you live a better life. And there is nothing wrong in your act. You did everything to reduce your pain.
I will not blame you. Non of the things carry an offence against me. Not Im living in the same misery.
I miss you a lot Baba. Love you.

26th May 2020

Sun goes down. Another day ends. A day ends time passes and im being forgotten. I know you suffered a lot because of me. I knew the pain you went though. I struggled a lot . Finally all my decisions were wrong. But my intention was not to give you further and more pains. Im so sorry sweetheart. I never had intentions to hurt you. I loved you a lot. I still love you.
Whatever you did reduce your pain is right. Im not blaming anything on you. I miss you a lot Baba. Will you remember me someday if you see me? I miss you a lot.

25th May 20w0

Hope you are at Colombo after a long time. I remember how we were walking in Thummulla area. Walks in Boudhdhaloka mawatha. Walks in the park. How we met in front of Nelum pokuna. I will live my lifetime remembering those days.
I wish if I could see you once more. Walk down the same streets once more. I miss those days. I miss you Baba. I miss you a lot. You are mine Baba. You are mine. Im in pain
Love you. 

24th May 2020.

Got a news. Colombo will be reopened. Im sure you will be called for the job. Doesn't matter what happens sweetheart.. stay safe. Wherever you are doesn't matter. What matters is the safety. You are more than aware about the pandemic. Take all safety measures. Your company wont understand the safety. Its your responsibility to assure your safety.
I miss you a lot Baba. I remember all the sweet memories with you. My eyes are wet sometimes. Its okay.
Love you. 

23rd May 2020

Try to love me someday again.
When the time is right. I will be waiting
Dont let me cry and I promise you.
You won't cry either.

When the heart aches.
Past becomes the future.
My eyes become wet.
Please rain and rain...

Time will pass. Future will be here.
You will not notice me even.
I will remain silent with a heart full of love.
Sweetheart! Try to love me again. 

22th May 2020

How should I tolerate the pain Baba? I dont know what I have left with to do. Im missing you. Someday will you remember me Baba? Will you come to see me once at least? At least in the day I leave? I hurt you a lot. I love yoy a lot too. Now I live in misery. I dont know how should I treat my pain. Im I'm just walk in pain. I saw you in my dreams numerous times. I hope you are fine Baba. Stay safe please.
Love you.

21th May 2020

How are you sweetheart? Going to work or Woking at home? What so ever I hope you are fine. I hope you are happy. Soon you will raise children. And that will be the time for me. I will definitely be forgotten forever. But I will be devoted to you. I will keep my faith in you. I will keep my love for you. I miss you a lot. I want to see you but I know im not allowed.
I went through lot of pain too. I know you took the same course. I respect and thankful for all the love and care you offered to me. You changed my life. I never knew the real love. You gave it to me. I know Im so unkind (I was so wrong too). You came to me and I fell in love in the first sight.
Love you... tc
Will write again.(There are some delays. But I will not stop expressing my feelings here).

20th May 2020

Hope you are fine sweetheart. I remember you a lot. Ages will pass. Still you will be in my mind. Time wont stop me sweetheart. Tell me once more! Will you love me again?
Will you say "love you" once again? I miss you Baba.
This is an old song. I loved you Baba. And I still love you.

19th May 2020

Live happily sweetheart. Live long. Be healthy. All my good wishes are with you. So the day ends. I missed you a lot. I planted a tree. Donated some goods to a poor person. May you be healthy and strong. Love you Baba. Take care. Yours.......

19th May

Planted a tree. Myself searched for seeds. Planted them. Today they have been placed in normal soil. Its may 19th

19th May 2020 (Happy birthday)

Happy birthday sweetheart!!! I miss you a lot. Time passes. Its your birthday. Hope everything is fine. I wish everything would be fantastic. I have few plans today. You will be remembered. Our love will be remembered. Im so sorry Baba. Will you love me someday again? Will you give a try? Take care. Ever loving C.

19th May 2020. Morning 00.02am

Happy birthday sweetheart.
Im writing this at 12.00 midnight.
I miss you a lot. All my love will be with you forever. I will not stop loving you.
Happy birthday!!! May you live a long and joyful life. May you be healthy! May you be happy! May you find your happiness in life. Best wishes Baba.

18th May 2020

Im totally helpless today Baba. Im waiting here like a child to post in the blog like a child. Its okay those are my feelings. I will not be noticed. My pain will not be seen by you or someone else. Its okay too. Why should you get upset seeing me. What else to be done if all the faults are im my hands. Im the one who threw your love away like an idiot. I feel everything. I will feel your love and warmth till the end of my life. And sweetheart I will not stop loving you too. Sweetheart you are mine. Im yours forever.
Blame me. You are right. Tomorrow is such a lucky day. You are celebrating your first birthday after the Marriage. I think Im the one who should be there with you (dont misunderstand me. Its just an innocent feeling). Better things will come to you Baba. I wish everything but the best. I will continuously give you the most valuable thing I have. Thats my love. My heart will be here for you always. Hope your parents are also fine. Miss you.

17th May 2020

17th of May. Wow time passed this speed? You know why the May is so beautiful? Because it was our month. Remember how joyful was the May? I want to talk to you once more. I miss you a lot sweetheart. A lot. Each and every moment spend here was nothing more than a pain. Im yours Baba. You are mine.......

16th May 2020

Baba Am I kicked out from your heart already? Am I not kept in a single memory at least? So Im swept out from all your memories? I miss you a lot here. Each and every moment you come to my mind. Sometimes those memories bring me tears. Im so sorry for all the pains I gave to you Baba. I haven't stop loving you. Punish me to the maximum. Thats okay. I loved you and I still love you than anyone else this world. Tale care Baby.

15th May 2020

Dont know how things would go further. Time is so hazardous. I wish your safety sweetheart. Someday I would run toward to grab those sweet little hands and take a nap on your lap. I remember all those memories. All the pains you went through. Also remember all the joy we had together.
I miss you.

14th May 2020

I had a dream last night. Your mother and you were walking in Gangarama temple. What a beauty you were in the dream. You are always beautiful. Most adorable and the most innocent one I have ever seen in my life. I hope you are fine Baba. I know you are already married. Beautiful life ahead you. I miss you a lot. Tc

13th May 2020

Sweetheart my posts are lag behind the time frame seriously thats because of my crappy mobile phone. You have to forgive me for few more weeks till I buy a good one. COVID19 travel restrictions delays me. Thats why im writing so slowly. A post takes more than 15 minutes to get uploaded. So slow. Im sorry Baba
 By the way whatever the issue, I haven't forgotten you. I know you have forgotten me. I feel it Baba.
You have better things to do, things to think about, things to get busy and etc. Im also thinking who am I to you now? May be a joke or a pain. I miss you though Baba. Love you.

12th May 2020

Read this peom and tears came in to my eyes.
I miss you a lot. I will not stop loving you

11th May 2020

I miss you a lot sweetheart 

10th May 2020

Sweetheart says colombo will be reopened tomorrow. Please be safe Baba. Your office is a crowded place. I think I dont have to express the concern about being safe in a pandemic.
I miss you a lot Baba. I wish I could come and hug you. I wish I could have a walk with you. Tale care my little Angel.

9th May 2020

Sweetheart how are you? Hope you are fine. I dont know what are thecircumstances you are facing. Whatever the issue please be in safe side first.
I know Baba Im already nothing a.d no-one to you. I was wrong. Im sorry. I love you though. After all i feel the way im being defeated.

Its okay Baba. Anyone can handle the victory only the mighty can handle the defeat. We both know what this mean. Because we both have handled the triumph amd the disaster.
I miss you a lot Baba. May is a beautiful month. Month of the beautiful hearts. Tc

8th May 2020

Some day you will not even recognise me sweetheart. Soon you will give birth to children. I wish your happiness. And your love will grow further and further. Time will delete the memory about me.
I will be left here like a old vehicle in a junk yard. Well who is wrong here? Im the one who is wrong Baba. Im the one who let you suffer. In the one who give you much pains. So I dont have excuses. I dont have to give excuses. Im the one who is wrong Baba.
I miss you a lot. I loved you like im crazy. That was real. My love wasn't a fake one. 

7th May 2020

Sweetheart did you forget me totally? I dont know when. I feel so. I knos when a girl finds her happiness history might get forgotten. Thats the reality. I saw you in a dream. I miss you.

6th May 2020.

Rains will come.
Time will be passed.
Days will grow in to weeks.
Weeks in to months and months in to years.
Decades will be gone.
I will be no-one.
And definitely be forgotten.
They will be grown.
Will they tell our story?
For sure yes. They will.
.......................
Forgotten and may be lost or may be the most hurting people have the greatest stories to tell.

5th May 2020

Days will come and go.
We were a team.
We were a good couple.
We were in love.
Now am I the only one in love?

Those days will not be returned?
Will I be forgotten? Will I he the forever villain? Will I be hated baba? Someday will you talk to me again? Someday will you call me again? Someday will you come to see me again? My heart asks numerous questions. I miss you a lot Baba.

4th May 2020

Loving you wasn't a mistake.
I fell in love at the first sight with you.
I made mistakes Baba. Now Im miserable and in pain. Still my heart loves you.
I will keep the hope and the love further.

3rd of May 2020

You are frequently in my dreams sweetheart. How sweet at least to see you this way. I know that you have moved on. I know now there is a beloved partner to you. I hope he loves you a lot. I wish you all the love too Baba. You know? probably you are one of the few girls in the world who beloved the most. I will not stop loving you sweetheart. I will write as usual when I buy a new mobile. I miss you a lot. May is a month full of sweet memories.

2nd of May 2020

I dont know how should I express my self Baba. But you are the person who convinced me about the love. You are the one who gave me the love. Thats how I began to trust love. I felt the wonder of love. Only you could love me Baba. I felt your love so deeply. I moss you.

1st of May 2020

Very special month sweetheart. I will miss you a lot

30th April 2020

Sorry my posts are short till I buy a new mobile. I miss you a lot sweetheart.

29th April 2020 (I didnt write this Baba. But I read this already 10-15 times though)

Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life. (quote) 

28 April 2020

Hope you are fine. Sweetheart did I show you the ornamental plants which I have planted for you? Hope no. Anyway there are two of them. They grow faster. When I study Im looking at them and thinking of you. Sometime I pour water to them. Its pur love growing daily. Someday when I leave this world you can come and take a look. You might see large trees. Thats our love. Im the one who made all our lives crappy. I apologise you for that. My eyes get wet when I remember those joyful and sad moments.
Will you love me again baba? Not necessarily today. Not necessarily tomorrow. But someday...
Any love remains for me? A little at least?
I miss you. 

27th April 2020

Sweetheart hope you are fine. When will you start to work Baba? Doesn't matter when but always be safe Baba. I remembered you a lot in past few days. Time passed like an express train. Thats the nature of the time. I urge you to be safe and stay safe. Don't you get ill. Will you?
Im so much confused regarding the way things go one. I have many disappointments. I have many things to regret.
Sweetheart you think we have met coincidentally? I hope no. I always think there is a deep meaning. Sweetheart I want you to understand someday that your villain lover loved you till the end. You were inside his breath and blood too. Your name was echoed in each and every heart beat.
Love you.

26th April 2020

Is there any love left for me Baba? Or its like a dry lake now? Im totally disappointed about the time and the circumstances. Im totally disappointed about my behaviour in our relationship. I know I'm one who was wrong. I know im the one to be blamed.
Anyway the truth is you have moved on. Time has passed. Our love is a history. No one remember our love. No one remember me. May be you even have forgotten me. I will not blame you for making your mind. I have to digest the fact that you have married. Do you remember me at least sometimes?
I remember you always Baba. I miss you too.

25th April 2020

This is yours.
This is you Baba.
This is us.
This is our story.
I wish if I could be with you.
I miss you a lot. 

24th April 2020

If you are living somewhere Happily Im happy for you Baba. I will always be here for you. I will keep loving and thinking of you. Time will pass you will forget me. You will be a mother. You will find the happiness of the life. I will only be a person who just hurt your feelings. I will be just a person who broke a girl's. My love for you will not highlight or cited. Im a so so bad person Baba. I was so cruel to you. I remember the way you cried on my laps. I will never forget our story. The story of pain and love. I miss you a lot Baba. I love you a lot. Your Araliya tree has many flowers today. Take care. 

23rd of April 2020

I saw your face somewhere Baba. A picture. Im not worried but im happy. Im happy for you. Im happy to see your happiness. I know its easier to forget pains and bad times. Easier to forget bad memories. I know bad times,bad memories and bad experiences are with me. So you will forget me easily. Thats alright. You have the right and the authority to choose your path. I will not interfere Baba. Thats fine. I will never be on your way ever again. Anyway I will keep loving you. I dont need your consent to love you. Someday please remember!!! That I breathed my last breath remembering you and our love together. So forget me Baba. It will be much easier for you. You have found your love. You are happy. Thats the most important thing. You will raise children. I will be forgotten. I will be no one. I miss you.

22th April 2020

Time isn't so good. COVID19 cases reported in your area. Im quite worried about the situation in your areas. Lock down further complicates things. Promise me that you will stay safe baba. Will you? Please do so Baba. Follow all the social distancing protocols and recommendations. Try to stay at home always. Please dont keep travel plans these days. I miss you a lot. I dont want to see you in trouble.
How is your mother and father sweetheart? Are they doing fine? I hope they are also healthy and safe. I miss you a lot Baba.
Always in love.. Yours... 

21th April 2020

Anniversary of #EasterSundayAttacksSL. A day which I wanted to call you. Just wanted to check that you are doing fine. However I  didn't called or make a contact for your own good. Dont misunderstand. Anyway a year passed. Earlier this year you married someone else. My was broken in to thousands of of pieces. I know you went through the same pain. So I dont have to explain you what the pain which im going through. I wish to see you someday. Someday Baba. I still love you. I miss you a lot. 

20 April 2020

Sweetheart how are you? I hope you are fine Baba. Sweetheart seems to be area you live is a high risk area for COVID19. Please stay safe Baba. I hope for everything but the best. Your company starts tomorrow. I heard. Wherever you go stay safe. I know I dont have the right to instruct you now. Im your lover once. So dont misunderstand me. I wish your safety always. 

19th April 2020

Sweetheart how are you? I hope your deities will be started tomorrow. Please Baba keep in mind this is a serious time. COVID 19 isn't a joke. You have to take care your self. I will be worried though im far away from you. My heart will always be with you Baba. Time will pass like a bullet train. I know the feeling now. I know the feeling of rejection. I knew it before also. I never walked away from you in a happy mindset Baba. I was dying inside. Pain was excruciating. I had no plans to leave you. Now there is no way back. Isn't it? Now I live in misery. Love you. Stay safe. 

18 April 2020

Soon the normalcy will be restored. Then I will buy mobile. I saw you last night baba. You will be in my dreams always. I miss you much. My hear aches. I cant digest the fact that I left you. Now Im so miserable. Will you come to see me tonight also? Please be there at least. Stay safe Baba

17 April 2020

I hope you are fine Baba. My mobile is a big issue. Im posting much late. Because it takes many minute to load pages. I hope everyone is well and safe. Please baba follow all safety precautions. I dont want to see you in a problem. Soon your job will be started and you have to attend. I know. I miss you a lot sweetheart. An Araliya plant by your name planted in a December 20th flowering now. It will bloom soon. I love you a lot. 

16th April 2020

Sorry for writing this short note tonight. I feel bad Baba. I miss you a lot.

15th April 2020

We had few rains. Soon the local vegetation will flower. And the fragrance will tell our story. The wind will sing our feelings, thoughts and stories never told to outside world. Iur precious past will remain here forever. (I know after some point I made it all unpleasant) Im so sorry Baba. I know the thoughts, feelings and fears governed my motivations and behaviour have become useless. I did something honestly. I do it even for today. Thats the love. I loved you a lot. Loved you like a child loves her mother. Loved you like a bird loves to skies. Now im so miserable Baba. Anyway sweetheart I will not stop loving you. When the last memory about me blows away from your mind.... Would this story be ended? Or endless. Love will remain Baba. I will have love for you. I will be a total stranger. Or an alien to you. I miss you a lot today. 

14th April 2020

New year came Baba. I know you are celebrating with someone else. Im not celebrating this time. Many reasons. I have reasons. I dont have people in my side. I dont have you in my side. You are far away from me. Physically and emotionally. Like my better half would you stand by me?.
So the days will pass sweetheart. I dont know where would I be taken to.... Time will decide. I dont have a control of him. April was a beautiful month to us. Remember the way we were together? I remember the kisses you gave to me. Take hundreds of selfies. Smile. Watch the sunset at Water's Edge. What a time. Love you. 

13th April 2020.... Happy New Year..

Helped a lot of people. I remembered you. Eyes became wet and the evening was blurred. I was in pain Baba. Yea Im one of them too. Who smile to the outside world but crying inside. Will you love me Baba? Will you talk to me once more? Will you hold my hand once more.
Would I be a lucky guy Baba? Its April. Happy new Year to my little Angel... Remembering all the better and bitter memories in April. I love you...
Im living inside you.

12th April 2020

I don't know how would you interpret me. I dont care much about it too. What I really wanted to say throughout my effort was the love. I have to admit that I loved you. And Im still loving you. Sooner comes a day to abandon all the memories about me Baba. That day comes. Same way your wedding day came to you. Same way you found your partner. A Day to forget me and move on. My heart will break again. Its okay Baba I can take it again and again. I dont believe that I have a heart. I hurt you like a criminal or a beast. Do I have a heart to be broken? . I will not hate you or blame you Baba. I know the enormous pain I gave you. I deserve to taste a little at least. This pain isn't bitter. But tastier. Im taking this road because I know that my heart will not stop loving you. So be it. I miss you. 

11th December 2020

Sweetheart how are you Baba. Are you okay? I hope you are fine. Time is passing. You will forget me. I will be a stranger to you. That will be a great pain for me. I dont know what are your future plans. What ever the thing you decide to do should be successful. I wish everything but the best for you Baba. I know now you have found and build your happiness with someone else. You know I recently went through a traumatic experience. I had no way to hide and cry. I was lost in an emotional shock. If I would get a chance to explain I will explain it later. I miss you a lot. Love you

10th April 2020.

I hope you are fine Baba. Please stay at home and stay safe. There is no other way to survive. Better than everything you have to take care of your mother. I hope you are fine Baba. I still love you. Love you a lot. I will not stop loving you. You are the most precious thing I ever had in my life. I miss you a lot.
Posted below a plant. It was planted in a December 20th.
Love you.

9th April 2020

Sweetheart when I remember you im pouring some water to the bamboo treet. Those are yours. By the name of you. Planted exactly on your birthday. I miss you a lot. Dont be upset for being late to write. My mobile is broken. No way to go out and buy a new one. Curfew is a big issue. Hope you are fine Baba. Hope your mother also doing fine. Tc

8th April 2020

No other way to express my self Baba. Someday if you see all my posts please understand that I lived in a pain. My life totally entangled in pain. I lost my love because of my bad decisions. Thats how I lost you. You are the only thing/person who I could really love Baba. Now im digesting the bitter truth. Someday love me again. Will you? I will be waiting to start over.. I promise you that I will not be the bad person anymore. I love you baba. I will be late to write because my mobile is broken. Love you. 

7th April 2020

Hope you are fine Baba. Im going through a very difficult time. I will not tell why. But the circumstances occurred weren't so good. I will try to make my mind. I hurt you. Well now I have to go through the same pain. If you are fine that I would appreciate a lot. Hope your parents also fine Baba. Keep your mother safe. She works a lot. She thinks about you a lot.y heart ached when I saw her efforts to make your comfort. I cried because of her kindness. Hope you remember. I love you Baba

6th April 2020

Im posting very slowly Baba. Anyway Im writing a daily note. I dont know what has happened with my mobile. I think its a problem in my mobile. Anyway Im keeping a message in daily basis in a text editor. Baba im in pain sweetheart.... Im in excruciating pain. Should I digest the fact that I lost you?. How should I make my mind? Someday you will not even remember me. Im still counting our memories. Love is a pain. And love is something nice too. Someday love me again Baba. Will you? I still wait for your good morning message at 5pm. Im waiting to chat you around 6.41am. Those times were the best. I miss you a lot sweetheart. .

5th April 2020

Late post not because I have forgotten you. Internet is this slow and I dont know why. One thing I know very well. Time is passing quickly. Someday Baba you will not even recall a memory about me. Im heading toward such a future. I know value of your love. Now I know what did I miss in my life. Now I know that the love went away from my life. Someday I will come again Baba. Try to love me once more. And I won't be a bad one for sure. Love you. 

4th April 2020

4th April 2020

I hope you are fine Baba. I will not be able to take these pains continuously. There will be a call somewhere. I would take the first chance to exit from this vicious cycle. Baba will you love me some day? Will you hold my hand once again? Will you be mine forever? Love you a lot baba. Miss you

3rd of April 2020

I have to work long hour Baba. Headaches like its going to blowout. I remember the headaches after long duty hours. I did those long hour duties to visit you in each and every weekend. Do you remember that past? I took paracetamol like a candy. Baba will you love me someday again? Will you give a try? Or no love left? Am I forgotten?
Anyway I will keep my love for you.

2nd of April 2020

Delayed messages always. Sweetheart I haven't forgotten you. Everything I felt inside nothing but the pain. I have to digest the bitter fact that you moved on. I have to live in misery for a long time. Dont know when this will be over. Sweetheart someday will you come to see me when I leave this world? Will you be there to say good bye for one last time? I might look silly at this point. But nothing about myself or you seems silly to me. Time will pass like a lightening. Nothing will wait for us. I know you have figured out everything. Thats why you have forgotten me. No love left for me Baba? Would I be loved? I miss you a lot. Writing this after a 48 hour long duty. Im tired. I have a headache. Thats remember me our past. Love you.

1st of April 2020

Wow. Time passes. April has come. I dont know where we are carried to?. Time will fly. We will understand that the life was a jouney. You and I separated but I feel my heart is entangled with you forever. I feel a comfort being loved to you. Feel a freshness and a satisfaction in the love I have for you. I remember the way we walked through Colombo roads. Especially in torington area. I remember the evenings at water's edge. Remember everything. I miss you a lot sweetheart. I know you are busy these days. I know you have people to think about now. Recently I went through something catastrophic to my mentality. I had no one to share my pain. So strange. Life is so strange. It has many lessons. I miss you

31st March 2020

Sweetheart how are you? Hope you aren't working these days. Well I'm working a lot these days since there are many facilities to be delivered to the public through our institutions. There are many safety preparations and arrangements to be made. We are working to achieve those goals. Im working hard too. I still remember your words "Baba you are going there to help people. Dont worry". I wasn't worried about me sweetheart. I was worrying about you and our love. I was worrying about being apart. Sweetheart I helped a lot of people for last few days. I was sleepless for few nights. I remembered you a lot. Dont think that I have forgotten you. When I  remember you I pour some water to your birthday remembrance tree. Its a mango tree. I love you forever Baba. Stay safe. Keep your parents safe. Especially parents. I will let you know why. Miss you.

30th March 2020

Sweetheart how are you? Hope you are fine. I dont understand the way of people acting. Anyway Baba safety is so vital. Hope you understand me. Stay at home Baba. The number of patients increasing. I want to Check up on you but im not allowed and importantly I dont want to hurt your  once more. I know if I come forward thats nothing more than another pain. If I talk again thats another pain. So please Baba understand im not making any contact with you not because I have forgotten you. I know the difficulties you went through. I know your feelings Baba. Im the one who knows them better. I want you to be vigilant and safe. Miss you a lot. 

29th March 2020

I hope you are fine Baba. I remembered you numerous times. I remembered the way you smiled. Same way I still remember how you cried too. Nothing will be forgotten.
I will live in your heart forever Baba. You will not notice. But I will live there. Im not a person who is good enough to say "by the name of the love". Anyway I can love still. No-one can say no or prohibit to my love. You cant too.
You blame me or hate me. Doesn't matter. I will not stop loving you. Remember how we were walking in roads,parks and shopping malls im March and April. Those days will not come to my life again. Im sadly and hopefully living my life. Im in pain though. Im in pain because im in love. I miss you a lot.

28th March 2020

Im writing this in late night. I dont know the reason but the internet is too slow. Anyway my mind isnt slow. My heart is singing your name continuously. Sweetheart tell me how should I love with the pain? Since we separated my conscience died Baba. Now im living like a mindless person.
Dont know when will be the pain end. Till the end I will keep my love for you. I will always keep my faith in you. I hope you remember the last promise which we had together. I asked only one thing Baba. "Dont let me live in a world without you". Find your happiness. Find your joy. Enjoy life! Raise children! Have a good life. Stay happy Baba. Live for me. I will live for you. Im yours and you will always be mine.

27th March 2020

Poured water to the plants. Your Bamboo tree grows like a giant. Im late to write these days Baba. The internet connection isnt stable. When the internet works im in sleep. Im sorry. Anyway I haven't forgotten my little angel. I love you a lot Baba. Im in pain. Someday please love me again. I will love you and promise I will never leave. And sweetheart stay safe. Follow all hygienic precautions to prevent COVID. Protect your parents too. I miss you a lot Baba.

26th March 2020

Sweetheart im writing this in late night. Im so so frustrated Baba. Totally disappointed. I never knew this is the life which I should tolerate. Im in dark without you. When I remember you being married to someone else my heart further aches and eyes get wet. I haven't seen you for more than two years now. When I remember those old moments my eyes are getting wet. I will wait whatever the time Baba. Please try to love me once more. I will love you like a bird loves to sky.
I will keep my pain here and smile. I will not show my pains and sorrows. I have to admit though. My life isn't easy this way.
So i will keep my faith in you and love.
Miss you. You are the only valuable thing I ever had

25th March 2020

Sweetheart I saw you in a dream again. Thats good Baba. At least visit me in my dreams. My posts are little late these days. Late not because I dont have a time for you but because I was too sick and simultaneously I was working too. I hope you are fine Baba. I remember you always. Baba please stay safe and stay closer to your family. I hope your mother also doing fine. What a lovely character. Pass my love and greetings to her too. Hope you are happy with your new life. You will meet many new endeavours Baba. And soon you will get to know how unimportant am I. You will not
See me. You will not think about me. Would I be fade away slowly? What would I be Baba? Miss you.

24th March 2020

Baba please stay safe. And stay healthy. Be closer to your beloved people. I hope you have forgotten me. I was sick (too damn sick even to got up from the bed) for few days. I thought this is the end. Time isn't good Baba. Follow all the safety instructions. I remembered you a lot. You were in a dream too. You were wearing a blue color dress. Thats all I remember. I love you each and every moment in my life. Now its my turn to suffer sweetheart. I know the pain you went through. I was cruel to you. But I didn't want you to suffer baba. All the decisions which I took was wrong. I lost you. Now im in misery. I died for the second time in 30th January 2020. Thats okay Baba.
Is is worthy to drag this misery? Love you

23th March 2020

Sweetheart Im sorry I couldn't write you for two days. Wait I will tell you the whole story. Im a little sick. I miss you a lot. Love you

21st March 2020

Baba. Hope you are fine. Well do I have to explain again? I hope no. Sweetheart please stay at home and stay safe. Even visiting a medical facility isn't safe at moment. There is nothing to be afraid of we are following all the safety precautions. I still remember the way you looked in the hospital when you caught dengue. I only know the pain which I felt. Sweetheart I haven't forgotten you. Definitely I will not too. I will be yours forever. You be my beloved forever too. I know you have better things to think and do now. I know im forgotten too. I haven't seen you since the day you blocked me in FB. I wish your safety Baba. I love you. 

20th March 2020

Baba stay safe. This virus is dangerous if someone contracted the severe form. The rosk to younger generations is less. when the man caught with the illness has other diseases (Concomitant illnesse) the risk is higher. Anyway prevention and safety always better. I remember you a lot. Love you Baba.

19thrd March 2020

Sweetheart how are you? As usual I'm in pain. Baba I know you are already forgotten me. Or you are forgetting the last few memories about me. Ita okay. Well done.  Dont live in pain. I know sweet I deserve a crappier life. But baba Im in pain not because I'm a cruel person. Im in pain because Im in love. Baba just promise me to love me someday once more. Will you? I know it is hard. I will not leave you again. I promise. I will secure your love. And I will not leave you.
Want to hold your hand forever. Want to feel the love and the sweetness forever. Want to feel the love forever. Shall we visit Sembuwaththa as we promised? Shall we visit Kandy as we promised? Shall we visit the temple closer to your home as we promised?
I miss you a lot Baba..

18th March 2020

Writing this around 11pm Baba. I was just thinking about you. About us. Memories we had together were numerous. March is the golden time of  our relationship. If you dont remember I will accept that. Because the faults and misconducts are on my hands. So there are many reasonable facts to be the wrong person in our relationship. All my faults will be accepted. I was wrong. But was I wrong to fall in love with you?
Well you might end our love and forget our memories. But the same memories will be lasted with me forever.  I Always remember your smiling innocent eyes. I love you a lot Baba. Whatever happened and happens, I will not stop loving you.
Will you love me someday sweetheart? Please tell me. Try to love me once more. And please Baba... stay safe. Please stay safe. I miss you..

17th March 2nd post

Im writing this around midnight. Baba please stay safe. Dont make me upset or sad. Please he healthy!!!. I wish you good health. I wish the same to your family. I remembered you a lot tonight. Hope I will meet you in my dreams. 

17th March 2020

Im writing this around 2pm. Depending on current status of the country I hope you are in a leave. I dont know exactly, but I guess so. I think about you a lot Baba. In previous notes I had an error in dates. I corrected them. Actually Im in an enormous pain and disappointment and I dont have a clear idea about the time and the dates. I apologize from you. I have to tell you that I haven't forgotten to write you. There are no single minute which I have spent without thinking about you. This time is so frustrating Baba. A virus is spreading. I wish your safety sweetheart. Same time I wish your family's safety. Especially your mother and father. I know the pain of being ill. And I know the pain I felt when I saw you in a hospital ward. Please stay safe. Follow all the safely precautions. I miss you a lot. Love you.

16th March 2020

Baba I have to emphasise about the health related issues these days due to the viral fever. We both know how hard to spent some time in a hospital or closed environment. I know the working conditions in your work place. And I want you to be safe sweetheart. Use a mask if possible. I hope as the USA also closing its facilities, your office will also declare a holiday soon. Anyway stay safe Baba. The risk to younger and child population is very low but the risk to elderly population is very hight. You know what Im talking about. Dont get caught any infection because you are going home. If your parents get sick that would be a serious issue. Im much worried about you. I dont want to see you or your parents in trouble. Dont go in to crowds. Follow hygienic protocols. Dont use common things. Dont share physical objects (spoons platelets and etc). I miss you a lot Baba. I love you. Please stay safe.

15th March retrospective note

I hope you are fine sweetheart. I remembered you a lot. I was so busy but never forgotten to make a note for you. I wish I could go for some shopping with you. Like we did in the past (Its the March). I heard some news. You wanted to leave all my gifts behind. I dont blame you if your really think that way. By the way I have all your gifts to me saved. From the beginning to the end of our relationship. If you throw it away please kill me too. Anyway I don't urge to do things this way and that way. Do what you think. Do what is right. My biggest gift for you is my love. You will have it with you always. I love you a lot Baba. And I dont have a hate for you. If you really want forget me. Circumstances will urge you to forget me. I know. My love will not be stopped though.

14th March 2020

Its a saturday Baba. I know you have better plans now. But few years prior Saturday was a day for us. I know you have changed. I feel the way im being forgotten. May be forgotten forever. Its isnt easy to keep this feeling and pain inside of me. Anyway I wish I could hold your hand and say I love you once again. I wish if I could breath few breaths through your soft hair. Take a walk in an evening in water's edge. Time isnt kind to me. Whatever I will not stop waiting for you sweetheart. Same way I will keep loving you. I hope your mother also doing fine. I remember her a lot too. I miss you a lot. Visit me in my dreams. Talk few words with me. Love you.

13th March 2020

Im writing this in midnight Baba. I dont know how I should face this pain. Im just going through an immense pain. Im trying to decrease my pain and agony by not thinking about my self much. How many times a day do I remember you Baba? I cant count. I remember each and every moment we have spent together. Time is so cruel to me. On the other hand time should be cruel to me for being cruel to you. You would think that Im crazy baba. Okay think im crazy because I love you. Think im crazy because im living inside you. I dont have word to secribe the feeling inside me. Its not easy to be the villain in love. All the faults are in my hands. So there is nothing left for arguing. Im the wrong one. Anyway I have lot of love for you Baba. I miss you tonight.

12th of March 2020

Im writing this in midnight Baba. I know many sleepless nights to come ahead. I was totally restless and I was in stress. How can I take a nap? How can I sleep? Since the January 30th my sleep cycle totally different. Im experiencing many sleepless nights. Its okay baba. Both of us know that I deserve nothing but the stress and loneliness. Hard times will be passed. I will wait for you. I will not lose my love. Same way my trust will be kept inside you. Sometimes you will never know that I lived inside you. Im yours forever. And you are mine too. I dont have words to explain the way I feel now and each moment im living. Im trying to adapt to the pain. Well definitely I deserve this pain. I have the right and a choice to adapt though. Someday love me once again Baba. Take care.

11th March 2020 (2nd post)

I will be heartbroken forever sweetheart. I did love you incidentally. I fell in love with you. It was like meeting someone who I knew for centuries. Same way I will not stop loving you. I miss you Baba

11th March 2020

Sweetheart how are you?  I hope you are fine Baba. Sweetheart im in pain. In excruciating pain. I dont know what to do at this point. I wish I could be with you. Promise me Baba. Dont leave me alone here. I hope you remember our last few promises. I was so cruel to you. And now its my turn to suffer this way. I felt and I knew the pain which you went through. Remember how joyful were these days to us? (February  march april and may) We were walking talking and smiling. What a beautiful time Baba. I still live in your memories sweetheart. I slowly started to write this around 9.15am. And finishing this around 4.20pm. I hope you are on your way home. Time will fly. I will be forgotten. You will proceed in your path. What will happen to me?. Please take care your self. 

10th March 2nd post

I love you a lot Baba. And I Miss you so much. 

10th March 2020

Im writing this around 2.15pm. Soon you will come out for your evening tea. I remember all those things Baba. How I was desperately waiting to receive your call? Can you remember? Now I dont call you and I dont have the privilege too. Few years back each and every moment in a day was always about us and about love.
I have a great gratitude for loving me Baba. And I miss your love a lot. Someday I will not be here anymore but that doesn't mean I left you forever. Im always be here or somewhere else waiting to love you. I wasn't selfish Baba. I was just helpless. Now Im totally messed up in misery. I hope you are fine. I feel the way Im being forgotten. Take care sweetheart.

9th March 2020

I feel the way you are slowly leaving Baba. I never felt this crappier before. Anyway what is important is your happiness Baba. If you are happy thats what it best. I wish I could hold your hand and walk with you. I time is passing Baba. Time wont wait for me. And all the memories about me about to be bumped. I naver blame it on you Baba. I know the pain I had given to you. You suffered because you loved me. And finally there is nothing left for you instead moving on. 

You are right. Never think that I hate you. I naver hate you. And I dont have an anger because of you. Same way I will not stop loving you. I remembered you a lot. Miss you.

8th March 2020

Sweetheart love me someday. Will you? I want be with you.  I hope you have forgotten me already. Im living holding a intense pain baba. I dont know when would I be freed. Whatever happens I dont have an issue. I will accept my fait. Im kind of a cruel person. I dont get what is love. But I felt your love a lot. Im addicted to your love.
Im sorry I will not stop loving you.
And this weekend is a long one. May be you aren't working tomorrow too. I dont know but I hope so. Baba remember how hard was it to leave you in Sundays? I never wanted to leave you in Colombo alone.
I went mad. I miss you a lot Baba. Sorry I couldn't write yesterday. I tried to relieve my pain for few hours minimally.
I love you. Happy women's day to you sweetheart. 

6th of March 2020

Sweetheart how are you? I hope everything is fine. I cant make my mind because I dont want to. I was a so rude person but my heart fell in love with you forever. There is no way to express it now but I hope you would feel it someday. Im not urging you to remember me but im in pain of separation. Im in pain because of lost love. Im in pain because I deeply love you. Think sweetheart If I was a opportunistic person would I be felt this pain? I hope no. I was wrong and totally messed up in our relationship. But I always had love for you. I always tried to love you as much as I can. Loved to see that beautiful smile in your face. Loved your voice and loved your songs. I fell in love with you forever. I dont want forget you. I miss you tonight.