28 April 2020

Hope you are fine. Sweetheart did I show you the ornamental plants which I have planted for you? Hope no. Anyway there are two of them. They grow faster. When I study Im looking at them and thinking of you. Sometime I pour water to them. Its pur love growing daily. Someday when I leave this world you can come and take a look. You might see large trees. Thats our love. Im the one who made all our lives crappy. I apologise you for that. My eyes get wet when I remember those joyful and sad moments.
Will you love me again baba? Not necessarily today. Not necessarily tomorrow. But someday...
Any love remains for me? A little at least?
I miss you. 

27th April 2020

Sweetheart hope you are fine. When will you start to work Baba? Doesn't matter when but always be safe Baba. I remembered you a lot in past few days. Time passed like an express train. Thats the nature of the time. I urge you to be safe and stay safe. Don't you get ill. Will you?
Im so much confused regarding the way things go one. I have many disappointments. I have many things to regret.
Sweetheart you think we have met coincidentally? I hope no. I always think there is a deep meaning. Sweetheart I want you to understand someday that your villain lover loved you till the end. You were inside his breath and blood too. Your name was echoed in each and every heart beat.
Love you.

26th April 2020

Is there any love left for me Baba? Or its like a dry lake now? Im totally disappointed about the time and the circumstances. Im totally disappointed about my behaviour in our relationship. I know I'm one who was wrong. I know im the one to be blamed.
Anyway the truth is you have moved on. Time has passed. Our love is a history. No one remember our love. No one remember me. May be you even have forgotten me. I will not blame you for making your mind. I have to digest the fact that you have married. Do you remember me at least sometimes?
I remember you always Baba. I miss you too.

25th April 2020

This is yours.
This is you Baba.
This is us.
This is our story.
I wish if I could be with you.
I miss you a lot. 

24th April 2020

If you are living somewhere Happily Im happy for you Baba. I will always be here for you. I will keep loving and thinking of you. Time will pass you will forget me. You will be a mother. You will find the happiness of the life. I will only be a person who just hurt your feelings. I will be just a person who broke a girl's. My love for you will not highlight or cited. Im a so so bad person Baba. I was so cruel to you. I remember the way you cried on my laps. I will never forget our story. The story of pain and love. I miss you a lot Baba. I love you a lot. Your Araliya tree has many flowers today. Take care. 

23rd of April 2020

I saw your face somewhere Baba. A picture. Im not worried but im happy. Im happy for you. Im happy to see your happiness. I know its easier to forget pains and bad times. Easier to forget bad memories. I know bad times,bad memories and bad experiences are with me. So you will forget me easily. Thats alright. You have the right and the authority to choose your path. I will not interfere Baba. Thats fine. I will never be on your way ever again. Anyway I will keep loving you. I dont need your consent to love you. Someday please remember!!! That I breathed my last breath remembering you and our love together. So forget me Baba. It will be much easier for you. You have found your love. You are happy. Thats the most important thing. You will raise children. I will be forgotten. I will be no one. I miss you.

22th April 2020

Time isn't so good. COVID19 cases reported in your area. Im quite worried about the situation in your areas. Lock down further complicates things. Promise me that you will stay safe baba. Will you? Please do so Baba. Follow all the social distancing protocols and recommendations. Try to stay at home always. Please dont keep travel plans these days. I miss you a lot. I dont want to see you in trouble.
How is your mother and father sweetheart? Are they doing fine? I hope they are also healthy and safe. I miss you a lot Baba.
Always in love.. Yours... 

21th April 2020

Anniversary of #EasterSundayAttacksSL. A day which I wanted to call you. Just wanted to check that you are doing fine. However I  didn't called or make a contact for your own good. Dont misunderstand. Anyway a year passed. Earlier this year you married someone else. My was broken in to thousands of of pieces. I know you went through the same pain. So I dont have to explain you what the pain which im going through. I wish to see you someday. Someday Baba. I still love you. I miss you a lot. 

20 April 2020

Sweetheart how are you? I hope you are fine Baba. Sweetheart seems to be area you live is a high risk area for COVID19. Please stay safe Baba. I hope for everything but the best. Your company starts tomorrow. I heard. Wherever you go stay safe. I know I dont have the right to instruct you now. Im your lover once. So dont misunderstand me. I wish your safety always. 

19th April 2020

Sweetheart how are you? I hope your deities will be started tomorrow. Please Baba keep in mind this is a serious time. COVID 19 isn't a joke. You have to take care your self. I will be worried though im far away from you. My heart will always be with you Baba. Time will pass like a bullet train. I know the feeling now. I know the feeling of rejection. I knew it before also. I never walked away from you in a happy mindset Baba. I was dying inside. Pain was excruciating. I had no plans to leave you. Now there is no way back. Isn't it? Now I live in misery. Love you. Stay safe. 

18 April 2020

Soon the normalcy will be restored. Then I will buy mobile. I saw you last night baba. You will be in my dreams always. I miss you much. My hear aches. I cant digest the fact that I left you. Now Im so miserable. Will you come to see me tonight also? Please be there at least. Stay safe Baba

17 April 2020

I hope you are fine Baba. My mobile is a big issue. Im posting much late. Because it takes many minute to load pages. I hope everyone is well and safe. Please baba follow all safety precautions. I dont want to see you in a problem. Soon your job will be started and you have to attend. I know. I miss you a lot sweetheart. An Araliya plant by your name planted in a December 20th flowering now. It will bloom soon. I love you a lot. 

16th April 2020

Sorry for writing this short note tonight. I feel bad Baba. I miss you a lot.

15th April 2020

We had few rains. Soon the local vegetation will flower. And the fragrance will tell our story. The wind will sing our feelings, thoughts and stories never told to outside world. Iur precious past will remain here forever. (I know after some point I made it all unpleasant) Im so sorry Baba. I know the thoughts, feelings and fears governed my motivations and behaviour have become useless. I did something honestly. I do it even for today. Thats the love. I loved you a lot. Loved you like a child loves her mother. Loved you like a bird loves to skies. Now im so miserable Baba. Anyway sweetheart I will not stop loving you. When the last memory about me blows away from your mind.... Would this story be ended? Or endless. Love will remain Baba. I will have love for you. I will be a total stranger. Or an alien to you. I miss you a lot today. 

14th April 2020

New year came Baba. I know you are celebrating with someone else. Im not celebrating this time. Many reasons. I have reasons. I dont have people in my side. I dont have you in my side. You are far away from me. Physically and emotionally. Like my better half would you stand by me?.
So the days will pass sweetheart. I dont know where would I be taken to.... Time will decide. I dont have a control of him. April was a beautiful month to us. Remember the way we were together? I remember the kisses you gave to me. Take hundreds of selfies. Smile. Watch the sunset at Water's Edge. What a time. Love you. 

13th April 2020.... Happy New Year..

Helped a lot of people. I remembered you. Eyes became wet and the evening was blurred. I was in pain Baba. Yea Im one of them too. Who smile to the outside world but crying inside. Will you love me Baba? Will you talk to me once more? Will you hold my hand once more.
Would I be a lucky guy Baba? Its April. Happy new Year to my little Angel... Remembering all the better and bitter memories in April. I love you...
Im living inside you.

12th April 2020

I don't know how would you interpret me. I dont care much about it too. What I really wanted to say throughout my effort was the love. I have to admit that I loved you. And Im still loving you. Sooner comes a day to abandon all the memories about me Baba. That day comes. Same way your wedding day came to you. Same way you found your partner. A Day to forget me and move on. My heart will break again. Its okay Baba I can take it again and again. I dont believe that I have a heart. I hurt you like a criminal or a beast. Do I have a heart to be broken? . I will not hate you or blame you Baba. I know the enormous pain I gave you. I deserve to taste a little at least. This pain isn't bitter. But tastier. Im taking this road because I know that my heart will not stop loving you. So be it. I miss you. 

11th December 2020

Sweetheart how are you Baba. Are you okay? I hope you are fine. Time is passing. You will forget me. I will be a stranger to you. That will be a great pain for me. I dont know what are your future plans. What ever the thing you decide to do should be successful. I wish everything but the best for you Baba. I know now you have found and build your happiness with someone else. You know I recently went through a traumatic experience. I had no way to hide and cry. I was lost in an emotional shock. If I would get a chance to explain I will explain it later. I miss you a lot. Love you

10th April 2020.

I hope you are fine Baba. Please stay at home and stay safe. There is no other way to survive. Better than everything you have to take care of your mother. I hope you are fine Baba. I still love you. Love you a lot. I will not stop loving you. You are the most precious thing I ever had in my life. I miss you a lot.
Posted below a plant. It was planted in a December 20th.
Love you.

9th April 2020

Sweetheart when I remember you im pouring some water to the bamboo treet. Those are yours. By the name of you. Planted exactly on your birthday. I miss you a lot. Dont be upset for being late to write. My mobile is broken. No way to go out and buy a new one. Curfew is a big issue. Hope you are fine Baba. Hope your mother also doing fine. Tc

8th April 2020

No other way to express my self Baba. Someday if you see all my posts please understand that I lived in a pain. My life totally entangled in pain. I lost my love because of my bad decisions. Thats how I lost you. You are the only thing/person who I could really love Baba. Now im digesting the bitter truth. Someday love me again. Will you? I will be waiting to start over.. I promise you that I will not be the bad person anymore. I love you baba. I will be late to write because my mobile is broken. Love you. 

7th April 2020

Hope you are fine Baba. Im going through a very difficult time. I will not tell why. But the circumstances occurred weren't so good. I will try to make my mind. I hurt you. Well now I have to go through the same pain. If you are fine that I would appreciate a lot. Hope your parents also fine Baba. Keep your mother safe. She works a lot. She thinks about you a lot.y heart ached when I saw her efforts to make your comfort. I cried because of her kindness. Hope you remember. I love you Baba

6th April 2020

Im posting very slowly Baba. Anyway Im writing a daily note. I dont know what has happened with my mobile. I think its a problem in my mobile. Anyway Im keeping a message in daily basis in a text editor. Baba im in pain sweetheart.... Im in excruciating pain. Should I digest the fact that I lost you?. How should I make my mind? Someday you will not even remember me. Im still counting our memories. Love is a pain. And love is something nice too. Someday love me again Baba. Will you? I still wait for your good morning message at 5pm. Im waiting to chat you around 6.41am. Those times were the best. I miss you a lot sweetheart. .

5th April 2020

Late post not because I have forgotten you. Internet is this slow and I dont know why. One thing I know very well. Time is passing quickly. Someday Baba you will not even recall a memory about me. Im heading toward such a future. I know value of your love. Now I know what did I miss in my life. Now I know that the love went away from my life. Someday I will come again Baba. Try to love me once more. And I won't be a bad one for sure. Love you. 

4th April 2020

4th April 2020

I hope you are fine Baba. I will not be able to take these pains continuously. There will be a call somewhere. I would take the first chance to exit from this vicious cycle. Baba will you love me some day? Will you hold my hand once again? Will you be mine forever? Love you a lot baba. Miss you

3rd of April 2020

I have to work long hour Baba. Headaches like its going to blowout. I remember the headaches after long duty hours. I did those long hour duties to visit you in each and every weekend. Do you remember that past? I took paracetamol like a candy. Baba will you love me someday again? Will you give a try? Or no love left? Am I forgotten?
Anyway I will keep my love for you.

2nd of April 2020

Delayed messages always. Sweetheart I haven't forgotten you. Everything I felt inside nothing but the pain. I have to digest the bitter fact that you moved on. I have to live in misery for a long time. Dont know when this will be over. Sweetheart someday will you come to see me when I leave this world? Will you be there to say good bye for one last time? I might look silly at this point. But nothing about myself or you seems silly to me. Time will pass like a lightening. Nothing will wait for us. I know you have figured out everything. Thats why you have forgotten me. No love left for me Baba? Would I be loved? I miss you a lot. Writing this after a 48 hour long duty. Im tired. I have a headache. Thats remember me our past. Love you.

1st of April 2020

Wow. Time passes. April has come. I dont know where we are carried to?. Time will fly. We will understand that the life was a jouney. You and I separated but I feel my heart is entangled with you forever. I feel a comfort being loved to you. Feel a freshness and a satisfaction in the love I have for you. I remember the way we walked through Colombo roads. Especially in torington area. I remember the evenings at water's edge. Remember everything. I miss you a lot sweetheart. I know you are busy these days. I know you have people to think about now. Recently I went through something catastrophic to my mentality. I had no one to share my pain. So strange. Life is so strange. It has many lessons. I miss you

31st March 2020

Sweetheart how are you? Hope you aren't working these days. Well I'm working a lot these days since there are many facilities to be delivered to the public through our institutions. There are many safety preparations and arrangements to be made. We are working to achieve those goals. Im working hard too. I still remember your words "Baba you are going there to help people. Dont worry". I wasn't worried about me sweetheart. I was worrying about you and our love. I was worrying about being apart. Sweetheart I helped a lot of people for last few days. I was sleepless for few nights. I remembered you a lot. Dont think that I have forgotten you. When I  remember you I pour some water to your birthday remembrance tree. Its a mango tree. I love you forever Baba. Stay safe. Keep your parents safe. Especially parents. I will let you know why. Miss you.