30th March 2020

Sweetheart how are you? Hope you are fine. I dont understand the way of people acting. Anyway Baba safety is so vital. Hope you understand me. Stay at home Baba. The number of patients increasing. I want to Check up on you but im not allowed and importantly I dont want to hurt your  once more. I know if I come forward thats nothing more than another pain. If I talk again thats another pain. So please Baba understand im not making any contact with you not because I have forgotten you. I know the difficulties you went through. I know your feelings Baba. Im the one who knows them better. I want you to be vigilant and safe. Miss you a lot. 

29th March 2020

I hope you are fine Baba. I remembered you numerous times. I remembered the way you smiled. Same way I still remember how you cried too. Nothing will be forgotten.
I will live in your heart forever Baba. You will not notice. But I will live there. Im not a person who is good enough to say "by the name of the love". Anyway I can love still. No-one can say no or prohibit to my love. You cant too.
You blame me or hate me. Doesn't matter. I will not stop loving you. Remember how we were walking in roads,parks and shopping malls im March and April. Those days will not come to my life again. Im sadly and hopefully living my life. Im in pain though. Im in pain because im in love. I miss you a lot.

28th March 2020

Im writing this in late night. I dont know the reason but the internet is too slow. Anyway my mind isnt slow. My heart is singing your name continuously. Sweetheart tell me how should I love with the pain? Since we separated my conscience died Baba. Now im living like a mindless person.
Dont know when will be the pain end. Till the end I will keep my love for you. I will always keep my faith in you. I hope you remember the last promise which we had together. I asked only one thing Baba. "Dont let me live in a world without you". Find your happiness. Find your joy. Enjoy life! Raise children! Have a good life. Stay happy Baba. Live for me. I will live for you. Im yours and you will always be mine.

27th March 2020

Poured water to the plants. Your Bamboo tree grows like a giant. Im late to write these days Baba. The internet connection isnt stable. When the internet works im in sleep. Im sorry. Anyway I haven't forgotten my little angel. I love you a lot Baba. Im in pain. Someday please love me again. I will love you and promise I will never leave. And sweetheart stay safe. Follow all hygienic precautions to prevent COVID. Protect your parents too. I miss you a lot Baba.

26th March 2020

Sweetheart im writing this in late night. Im so so frustrated Baba. Totally disappointed. I never knew this is the life which I should tolerate. Im in dark without you. When I remember you being married to someone else my heart further aches and eyes get wet. I haven't seen you for more than two years now. When I remember those old moments my eyes are getting wet. I will wait whatever the time Baba. Please try to love me once more. I will love you like a bird loves to sky.
I will keep my pain here and smile. I will not show my pains and sorrows. I have to admit though. My life isn't easy this way.
So i will keep my faith in you and love.
Miss you. You are the only valuable thing I ever had

25th March 2020

Sweetheart I saw you in a dream again. Thats good Baba. At least visit me in my dreams. My posts are little late these days. Late not because I dont have a time for you but because I was too sick and simultaneously I was working too. I hope you are fine Baba. I remember you always. Baba please stay safe and stay closer to your family. I hope your mother also doing fine. What a lovely character. Pass my love and greetings to her too. Hope you are happy with your new life. You will meet many new endeavours Baba. And soon you will get to know how unimportant am I. You will not
See me. You will not think about me. Would I be fade away slowly? What would I be Baba? Miss you.

24th March 2020

Baba please stay safe. And stay healthy. Be closer to your beloved people. I hope you have forgotten me. I was sick (too damn sick even to got up from the bed) for few days. I thought this is the end. Time isn't good Baba. Follow all the safety instructions. I remembered you a lot. You were in a dream too. You were wearing a blue color dress. Thats all I remember. I love you each and every moment in my life. Now its my turn to suffer sweetheart. I know the pain you went through. I was cruel to you. But I didn't want you to suffer baba. All the decisions which I took was wrong. I lost you. Now im in misery. I died for the second time in 30th January 2020. Thats okay Baba.
Is is worthy to drag this misery? Love you

23th March 2020

Sweetheart Im sorry I couldn't write you for two days. Wait I will tell you the whole story. Im a little sick. I miss you a lot. Love you

21st March 2020

Baba. Hope you are fine. Well do I have to explain again? I hope no. Sweetheart please stay at home and stay safe. Even visiting a medical facility isn't safe at moment. There is nothing to be afraid of we are following all the safety precautions. I still remember the way you looked in the hospital when you caught dengue. I only know the pain which I felt. Sweetheart I haven't forgotten you. Definitely I will not too. I will be yours forever. You be my beloved forever too. I know you have better things to think and do now. I know im forgotten too. I haven't seen you since the day you blocked me in FB. I wish your safety Baba. I love you. 

20th March 2020

Baba stay safe. This virus is dangerous if someone contracted the severe form. The rosk to younger generations is less. when the man caught with the illness has other diseases (Concomitant illnesse) the risk is higher. Anyway prevention and safety always better. I remember you a lot. Love you Baba.

19thrd March 2020

Sweetheart how are you? As usual I'm in pain. Baba I know you are already forgotten me. Or you are forgetting the last few memories about me. Ita okay. Well done.  Dont live in pain. I know sweet I deserve a crappier life. But baba Im in pain not because I'm a cruel person. Im in pain because Im in love. Baba just promise me to love me someday once more. Will you? I know it is hard. I will not leave you again. I promise. I will secure your love. And I will not leave you.
Want to hold your hand forever. Want to feel the love and the sweetness forever. Want to feel the love forever. Shall we visit Sembuwaththa as we promised? Shall we visit Kandy as we promised? Shall we visit the temple closer to your home as we promised?
I miss you a lot Baba..

18th March 2020

Writing this around 11pm Baba. I was just thinking about you. About us. Memories we had together were numerous. March is the golden time of  our relationship. If you dont remember I will accept that. Because the faults and misconducts are on my hands. So there are many reasonable facts to be the wrong person in our relationship. All my faults will be accepted. I was wrong. But was I wrong to fall in love with you?
Well you might end our love and forget our memories. But the same memories will be lasted with me forever.  I Always remember your smiling innocent eyes. I love you a lot Baba. Whatever happened and happens, I will not stop loving you.
Will you love me someday sweetheart? Please tell me. Try to love me once more. And please Baba... stay safe. Please stay safe. I miss you..

17th March 2nd post

Im writing this around midnight. Baba please stay safe. Dont make me upset or sad. Please he healthy!!!. I wish you good health. I wish the same to your family. I remembered you a lot tonight. Hope I will meet you in my dreams. 

17th March 2020

Im writing this around 2pm. Depending on current status of the country I hope you are in a leave. I dont know exactly, but I guess so. I think about you a lot Baba. In previous notes I had an error in dates. I corrected them. Actually Im in an enormous pain and disappointment and I dont have a clear idea about the time and the dates. I apologize from you. I have to tell you that I haven't forgotten to write you. There are no single minute which I have spent without thinking about you. This time is so frustrating Baba. A virus is spreading. I wish your safety sweetheart. Same time I wish your family's safety. Especially your mother and father. I know the pain of being ill. And I know the pain I felt when I saw you in a hospital ward. Please stay safe. Follow all the safely precautions. I miss you a lot. Love you.

16th March 2020

Baba I have to emphasise about the health related issues these days due to the viral fever. We both know how hard to spent some time in a hospital or closed environment. I know the working conditions in your work place. And I want you to be safe sweetheart. Use a mask if possible. I hope as the USA also closing its facilities, your office will also declare a holiday soon. Anyway stay safe Baba. The risk to younger and child population is very low but the risk to elderly population is very hight. You know what Im talking about. Dont get caught any infection because you are going home. If your parents get sick that would be a serious issue. Im much worried about you. I dont want to see you or your parents in trouble. Dont go in to crowds. Follow hygienic protocols. Dont use common things. Dont share physical objects (spoons platelets and etc). I miss you a lot Baba. I love you. Please stay safe.

15th March retrospective note

I hope you are fine sweetheart. I remembered you a lot. I was so busy but never forgotten to make a note for you. I wish I could go for some shopping with you. Like we did in the past (Its the March). I heard some news. You wanted to leave all my gifts behind. I dont blame you if your really think that way. By the way I have all your gifts to me saved. From the beginning to the end of our relationship. If you throw it away please kill me too. Anyway I don't urge to do things this way and that way. Do what you think. Do what is right. My biggest gift for you is my love. You will have it with you always. I love you a lot Baba. And I dont have a hate for you. If you really want forget me. Circumstances will urge you to forget me. I know. My love will not be stopped though.

14th March 2020

Its a saturday Baba. I know you have better plans now. But few years prior Saturday was a day for us. I know you have changed. I feel the way im being forgotten. May be forgotten forever. Its isnt easy to keep this feeling and pain inside of me. Anyway I wish I could hold your hand and say I love you once again. I wish if I could breath few breaths through your soft hair. Take a walk in an evening in water's edge. Time isnt kind to me. Whatever I will not stop waiting for you sweetheart. Same way I will keep loving you. I hope your mother also doing fine. I remember her a lot too. I miss you a lot. Visit me in my dreams. Talk few words with me. Love you.

13th March 2020

Im writing this in midnight Baba. I dont know how I should face this pain. Im just going through an immense pain. Im trying to decrease my pain and agony by not thinking about my self much. How many times a day do I remember you Baba? I cant count. I remember each and every moment we have spent together. Time is so cruel to me. On the other hand time should be cruel to me for being cruel to you. You would think that Im crazy baba. Okay think im crazy because I love you. Think im crazy because im living inside you. I dont have word to secribe the feeling inside me. Its not easy to be the villain in love. All the faults are in my hands. So there is nothing left for arguing. Im the wrong one. Anyway I have lot of love for you Baba. I miss you tonight.

12th of March 2020

Im writing this in midnight Baba. I know many sleepless nights to come ahead. I was totally restless and I was in stress. How can I take a nap? How can I sleep? Since the January 30th my sleep cycle totally different. Im experiencing many sleepless nights. Its okay baba. Both of us know that I deserve nothing but the stress and loneliness. Hard times will be passed. I will wait for you. I will not lose my love. Same way my trust will be kept inside you. Sometimes you will never know that I lived inside you. Im yours forever. And you are mine too. I dont have words to explain the way I feel now and each moment im living. Im trying to adapt to the pain. Well definitely I deserve this pain. I have the right and a choice to adapt though. Someday love me once again Baba. Take care.

11th March 2020 (2nd post)

I will be heartbroken forever sweetheart. I did love you incidentally. I fell in love with you. It was like meeting someone who I knew for centuries. Same way I will not stop loving you. I miss you Baba

11th March 2020

Sweetheart how are you?  I hope you are fine Baba. Sweetheart im in pain. In excruciating pain. I dont know what to do at this point. I wish I could be with you. Promise me Baba. Dont leave me alone here. I hope you remember our last few promises. I was so cruel to you. And now its my turn to suffer this way. I felt and I knew the pain which you went through. Remember how joyful were these days to us? (February  march april and may) We were walking talking and smiling. What a beautiful time Baba. I still live in your memories sweetheart. I slowly started to write this around 9.15am. And finishing this around 4.20pm. I hope you are on your way home. Time will fly. I will be forgotten. You will proceed in your path. What will happen to me?. Please take care your self. 

10th March 2nd post

I love you a lot Baba. And I Miss you so much. 

10th March 2020

Im writing this around 2.15pm. Soon you will come out for your evening tea. I remember all those things Baba. How I was desperately waiting to receive your call? Can you remember? Now I dont call you and I dont have the privilege too. Few years back each and every moment in a day was always about us and about love.
I have a great gratitude for loving me Baba. And I miss your love a lot. Someday I will not be here anymore but that doesn't mean I left you forever. Im always be here or somewhere else waiting to love you. I wasn't selfish Baba. I was just helpless. Now Im totally messed up in misery. I hope you are fine. I feel the way Im being forgotten. Take care sweetheart.

9th March 2020

I feel the way you are slowly leaving Baba. I never felt this crappier before. Anyway what is important is your happiness Baba. If you are happy thats what it best. I wish I could hold your hand and walk with you. I time is passing Baba. Time wont wait for me. And all the memories about me about to be bumped. I naver blame it on you Baba. I know the pain I had given to you. You suffered because you loved me. And finally there is nothing left for you instead moving on. 

You are right. Never think that I hate you. I naver hate you. And I dont have an anger because of you. Same way I will not stop loving you. I remembered you a lot. Miss you.

8th March 2020

Sweetheart love me someday. Will you? I want be with you.  I hope you have forgotten me already. Im living holding a intense pain baba. I dont know when would I be freed. Whatever happens I dont have an issue. I will accept my fait. Im kind of a cruel person. I dont get what is love. But I felt your love a lot. Im addicted to your love.
Im sorry I will not stop loving you.
And this weekend is a long one. May be you aren't working tomorrow too. I dont know but I hope so. Baba remember how hard was it to leave you in Sundays? I never wanted to leave you in Colombo alone.
I went mad. I miss you a lot Baba. Sorry I couldn't write yesterday. I tried to relieve my pain for few hours minimally.
I love you. Happy women's day to you sweetheart. 

6th of March 2020

Sweetheart how are you? I hope everything is fine. I cant make my mind because I dont want to. I was a so rude person but my heart fell in love with you forever. There is no way to express it now but I hope you would feel it someday. Im not urging you to remember me but im in pain of separation. Im in pain because of lost love. Im in pain because I deeply love you. Think sweetheart If I was a opportunistic person would I be felt this pain? I hope no. I was wrong and totally messed up in our relationship. But I always had love for you. I always tried to love you as much as I can. Loved to see that beautiful smile in your face. Loved your voice and loved your songs. I fell in love with you forever. I dont want forget you. I miss you tonight.

5th March 2020

Im writing this around 3.45pm. 15 minutes more to finish your duties. Dont think that I have forgotten you sweetheart. Im Keeping my silence because I love you a lot. Im silent because I have the highest respect for you. Im silence because I dont want to see you crying anymore.
Take care.

5th of March 2020

Keep your promise sweetheart. Dont leave me here alone ever. 

5th of February 2020

I felt everything all the time. Though we were separated I felt the distance which were developing between us. Im talking about the distance between our hearts. I know I was a terrible lover. I was a rude person to you. But you loved me. You were an Angel to me Baba. I will always have a great gratitude for what you let me feel and The way you loved me. I don't have a will to be recovered. Let me be damaged and broken. If I have to recover I have to move on. But I dont want. I dont want to forget you. How can I forget the sweetest thing I ever had in my life? I haven't seen you for years now. I haven't heard from you for a long time. This isnt easy Baba. Trust me im in an endless pain. Im suffering. Im smiling to outer world like im a happy person. I hope you are fine Baba. I miss you..

4th February 2020

Sweetheart time is passing. You started a new life. And sure Im about to be forgotten forever. I feel an enormous pain inside my mind. Being most beloved and falling to this level is like a fall from the skies. There are many endeavours to explore in your new life. Hope you are happy Baba. I wish your happiness more than anything else. Someday sooner you will raise children. You will be a mother. The time and the circumstances will urge you to erase memories. Especially memories about me. Or you will see the relative unimportant features about those memories. I want you to be happy Baba. If you really want to forget me there is nothing to do. Im not urging you to keep me inside you. Im a person who couldn't recognise love. Blame me and hate me if you want. I have lot of love for you. Till the end I will live inside my memories. Same way I will not stop loving you. I miss you a lot.

3rd February 2020

Im writing this around 12.30am Baba. Im doing a 24 hour duty today. I was so tired. Fell in to a sleep at once. And suddenly after midnight I remembered you. Here Im writing a letter to you. I kind of lost my self in January end. I know Baba. Nothing could be done. May be this is my destiny. May be a sad one. Probably no one would remember me someday. Should I stay calm. What should I do Baba? Tell me. You want me to forget you?. Never. You lives in me. And Im living inside you. I miss you a lot. I pray daily for your wellbeing. Take care Baba

2nd of March 2020

Sorry weetheart I was late write this note. Anyway I haven't forgotten you. I couldn't write this because I was helping someone. I did it behalf of you. Because you are the one who encouraged me to come here and serve people. Cant you remember the March 1st? I took that painful walk to a rural area in a March. I miss you a lot Baba. I hope you are fine. 

1st of March 2020

Since our separation I haven't visit Colombo frequently. Because I feel enormous pain and a sadness when I travel through those places. I visited when it was a vital necessity only. Once I visited your workplace even. I didnt try to interfere. I didnt want to make things worse for you. It was actually in December. I was passing closer and just stopped for a while. I felt you (as I always do). By the way one of my friends told me there are many new places to walk dine and enjoy. Said colombo is changing quickly. Hope you enjoy Baba. Enjoy  whenever you can. I miss you a lot. Today a Sunday. You know how painful was it to take the bus around 6pm and leave you. You and I know the pain. February ended. March first today. What do you remember today Baba? Nothing special? Well there is something special today. Nothing to celebrate though. March 1st was a memorable day.
Take care. Love you.