30th May 2020

This day will be gone. Who remembered?  Who cares? Time will pass sweetheart. I will not stop loving you though im just no-one to you. You will be in my memories forever. So this day ends. Memories will last. Same way I will be gone someday. At least will you be there to say one last good bye?
Time isn't the issue if I can wait. I will love you forever. Miss you a lot today.

29th May 2020

How could I be silent this evening.  How could I be left in dark tolerating these feelings. My mind is crying. My heart is broken. My heart deserves no mercy. Yet im in love with you. And Im broken.
Remember this eve sweetheart?we talked a lot. This is a memorable eve. Remember what we were talking? I still remember your voice. I still hear those words. Everything inside me filled with joy of keeping our memories. Im in pain but im happy at least I have all the memories about you. I kept my silence like a deep lake. I never spoke a word. I never made a single insult/joke against you. I will not ever too. Yet im keeping a deep love,gratitude and many sweet feelings about you. I miss you a lot. Let this evening be forgotten. I will remain in a universe of pain. Hope you are fine
Love you. 

28th May 2020

I miss you a lot.
I habe no words to express the feeling im keepong inside of me.
Love you sweetheart

27th May 2020

Whatever the language used doesn't matter pain is same for everyone. I was wondering how you went through this harsh thing called pain? Especially pain of losing someone is very tough. Im experiencing the same thing. I know that you moved on sweetheart. May you live a better life. And there is nothing wrong in your act. You did everything to reduce your pain.
I will not blame you. Non of the things carry an offence against me. Not Im living in the same misery.
I miss you a lot Baba. Love you.

26th May 2020

Sun goes down. Another day ends. A day ends time passes and im being forgotten. I know you suffered a lot because of me. I knew the pain you went though. I struggled a lot . Finally all my decisions were wrong. But my intention was not to give you further and more pains. Im so sorry sweetheart. I never had intentions to hurt you. I loved you a lot. I still love you.
Whatever you did reduce your pain is right. Im not blaming anything on you. I miss you a lot Baba. Will you remember me someday if you see me? I miss you a lot.

25th May 20w0

Hope you are at Colombo after a long time. I remember how we were walking in Thummulla area. Walks in Boudhdhaloka mawatha. Walks in the park. How we met in front of Nelum pokuna. I will live my lifetime remembering those days.
I wish if I could see you once more. Walk down the same streets once more. I miss those days. I miss you Baba. I miss you a lot. You are mine Baba. You are mine. Im in pain
Love you. 

24th May 2020.

Got a news. Colombo will be reopened. Im sure you will be called for the job. Doesn't matter what happens sweetheart.. stay safe. Wherever you are doesn't matter. What matters is the safety. You are more than aware about the pandemic. Take all safety measures. Your company wont understand the safety. Its your responsibility to assure your safety.
I miss you a lot Baba. I remember all the sweet memories with you. My eyes are wet sometimes. Its okay.
Love you. 

23rd May 2020

Try to love me someday again.
When the time is right. I will be waiting
Dont let me cry and I promise you.
You won't cry either.

When the heart aches.
Past becomes the future.
My eyes become wet.
Please rain and rain...

Time will pass. Future will be here.
You will not notice me even.
I will remain silent with a heart full of love.
Sweetheart! Try to love me again. 

22th May 2020

How should I tolerate the pain Baba? I dont know what I have left with to do. Im missing you. Someday will you remember me Baba? Will you come to see me once at least? At least in the day I leave? I hurt you a lot. I love yoy a lot too. Now I live in misery. I dont know how should I treat my pain. Im I'm just walk in pain. I saw you in my dreams numerous times. I hope you are fine Baba. Stay safe please.
Love you.

21th May 2020

How are you sweetheart? Going to work or Woking at home? What so ever I hope you are fine. I hope you are happy. Soon you will raise children. And that will be the time for me. I will definitely be forgotten forever. But I will be devoted to you. I will keep my faith in you. I will keep my love for you. I miss you a lot. I want to see you but I know im not allowed.
I went through lot of pain too. I know you took the same course. I respect and thankful for all the love and care you offered to me. You changed my life. I never knew the real love. You gave it to me. I know Im so unkind (I was so wrong too). You came to me and I fell in love in the first sight.
Love you... tc
Will write again.(There are some delays. But I will not stop expressing my feelings here).

20th May 2020

Hope you are fine sweetheart. I remember you a lot. Ages will pass. Still you will be in my mind. Time wont stop me sweetheart. Tell me once more! Will you love me again?
Will you say "love you" once again? I miss you Baba.
This is an old song. I loved you Baba. And I still love you.

19th May 2020

Live happily sweetheart. Live long. Be healthy. All my good wishes are with you. So the day ends. I missed you a lot. I planted a tree. Donated some goods to a poor person. May you be healthy and strong. Love you Baba. Take care. Yours.......

19th May

Planted a tree. Myself searched for seeds. Planted them. Today they have been placed in normal soil. Its may 19th

19th May 2020 (Happy birthday)

Happy birthday sweetheart!!! I miss you a lot. Time passes. Its your birthday. Hope everything is fine. I wish everything would be fantastic. I have few plans today. You will be remembered. Our love will be remembered. Im so sorry Baba. Will you love me someday again? Will you give a try? Take care. Ever loving C.

19th May 2020. Morning 00.02am

Happy birthday sweetheart.
Im writing this at 12.00 midnight.
I miss you a lot. All my love will be with you forever. I will not stop loving you.
Happy birthday!!! May you live a long and joyful life. May you be healthy! May you be happy! May you find your happiness in life. Best wishes Baba.

18th May 2020

Im totally helpless today Baba. Im waiting here like a child to post in the blog like a child. Its okay those are my feelings. I will not be noticed. My pain will not be seen by you or someone else. Its okay too. Why should you get upset seeing me. What else to be done if all the faults are im my hands. Im the one who threw your love away like an idiot. I feel everything. I will feel your love and warmth till the end of my life. And sweetheart I will not stop loving you too. Sweetheart you are mine. Im yours forever.
Blame me. You are right. Tomorrow is such a lucky day. You are celebrating your first birthday after the Marriage. I think Im the one who should be there with you (dont misunderstand me. Its just an innocent feeling). Better things will come to you Baba. I wish everything but the best. I will continuously give you the most valuable thing I have. Thats my love. My heart will be here for you always. Hope your parents are also fine. Miss you.

17th May 2020

17th of May. Wow time passed this speed? You know why the May is so beautiful? Because it was our month. Remember how joyful was the May? I want to talk to you once more. I miss you a lot sweetheart. A lot. Each and every moment spend here was nothing more than a pain. Im yours Baba. You are mine.......

16th May 2020

Baba Am I kicked out from your heart already? Am I not kept in a single memory at least? So Im swept out from all your memories? I miss you a lot here. Each and every moment you come to my mind. Sometimes those memories bring me tears. Im so sorry for all the pains I gave to you Baba. I haven't stop loving you. Punish me to the maximum. Thats okay. I loved you and I still love you than anyone else this world. Tale care Baby.

15th May 2020

Dont know how things would go further. Time is so hazardous. I wish your safety sweetheart. Someday I would run toward to grab those sweet little hands and take a nap on your lap. I remember all those memories. All the pains you went through. Also remember all the joy we had together.
I miss you.

14th May 2020

I had a dream last night. Your mother and you were walking in Gangarama temple. What a beauty you were in the dream. You are always beautiful. Most adorable and the most innocent one I have ever seen in my life. I hope you are fine Baba. I know you are already married. Beautiful life ahead you. I miss you a lot. Tc

13th May 2020

Sweetheart my posts are lag behind the time frame seriously thats because of my crappy mobile phone. You have to forgive me for few more weeks till I buy a good one. COVID19 travel restrictions delays me. Thats why im writing so slowly. A post takes more than 15 minutes to get uploaded. So slow. Im sorry Baba
 By the way whatever the issue, I haven't forgotten you. I know you have forgotten me. I feel it Baba.
You have better things to do, things to think about, things to get busy and etc. Im also thinking who am I to you now? May be a joke or a pain. I miss you though Baba. Love you.

12th May 2020

Read this peom and tears came in to my eyes.
I miss you a lot. I will not stop loving you

11th May 2020

I miss you a lot sweetheart 

10th May 2020

Sweetheart says colombo will be reopened tomorrow. Please be safe Baba. Your office is a crowded place. I think I dont have to express the concern about being safe in a pandemic.
I miss you a lot Baba. I wish I could come and hug you. I wish I could have a walk with you. Tale care my little Angel.

9th May 2020

Sweetheart how are you? Hope you are fine. I dont know what are thecircumstances you are facing. Whatever the issue please be in safe side first.
I know Baba Im already nothing a.d no-one to you. I was wrong. Im sorry. I love you though. After all i feel the way im being defeated.

Its okay Baba. Anyone can handle the victory only the mighty can handle the defeat. We both know what this mean. Because we both have handled the triumph amd the disaster.
I miss you a lot Baba. May is a beautiful month. Month of the beautiful hearts. Tc

8th May 2020

Some day you will not even recognise me sweetheart. Soon you will give birth to children. I wish your happiness. And your love will grow further and further. Time will delete the memory about me.
I will be left here like a old vehicle in a junk yard. Well who is wrong here? Im the one who is wrong Baba. Im the one who let you suffer. In the one who give you much pains. So I dont have excuses. I dont have to give excuses. Im the one who is wrong Baba.
I miss you a lot. I loved you like im crazy. That was real. My love wasn't a fake one. 

7th May 2020

Sweetheart did you forget me totally? I dont know when. I feel so. I knos when a girl finds her happiness history might get forgotten. Thats the reality. I saw you in a dream. I miss you.

6th May 2020.

Rains will come.
Time will be passed.
Days will grow in to weeks.
Weeks in to months and months in to years.
Decades will be gone.
I will be no-one.
And definitely be forgotten.
They will be grown.
Will they tell our story?
For sure yes. They will.
.......................
Forgotten and may be lost or may be the most hurting people have the greatest stories to tell.

5th May 2020

Days will come and go.
We were a team.
We were a good couple.
We were in love.
Now am I the only one in love?

Those days will not be returned?
Will I be forgotten? Will I he the forever villain? Will I be hated baba? Someday will you talk to me again? Someday will you call me again? Someday will you come to see me again? My heart asks numerous questions. I miss you a lot Baba.

4th May 2020

Loving you wasn't a mistake.
I fell in love at the first sight with you.
I made mistakes Baba. Now Im miserable and in pain. Still my heart loves you.
I will keep the hope and the love further.

3rd of May 2020

You are frequently in my dreams sweetheart. How sweet at least to see you this way. I know that you have moved on. I know now there is a beloved partner to you. I hope he loves you a lot. I wish you all the love too Baba. You know? probably you are one of the few girls in the world who beloved the most. I will not stop loving you sweetheart. I will write as usual when I buy a new mobile. I miss you a lot. May is a month full of sweet memories.

2nd of May 2020

I dont know how should I express my self Baba. But you are the person who convinced me about the love. You are the one who gave me the love. Thats how I began to trust love. I felt the wonder of love. Only you could love me Baba. I felt your love so deeply. I moss you.

1st of May 2020

Very special month sweetheart. I will miss you a lot

30th April 2020

Sorry my posts are short till I buy a new mobile. I miss you a lot sweetheart.

29th April 2020 (I didnt write this Baba. But I read this already 10-15 times though)

Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life. (quote)