31st December 2020

 It's the new year eve. I haven't forgotten you Baba. Im just remembering each and every good memory we had together. See how fast  the time is flying. There is no way back. Every moment we spent was a memory. Im working today. A day with heavy rains. I remembered how we held our hands together. Those memories will live inside me forever. I still love you. I didn't write because you moved on and I dont want to disturb you. Im nothing more than another pain to you. I know that. Someday I will find you Baba. I will keep my love forever. In heavy rains I took this picture. I planted this to remember you. I miss you in New year eve. Tc

20th December 2020

 Sweetheart its December 20th. This is the  day which I left you. Truly its my fault. I don't want you to remember the past and give you the coldest possible feeling which a soul can tolerate. Anyway it was a December 20th. That day came. Heavy rains going here like someone is crying. It wasn't easy for me too. Since then my heart is suffering by pains. I will be in pain forever. And I want you to know that I still love you. I know that you have moved on in your path. I know you have found your happiness. Its okay. You have to. Just remember! I didn't end my love anyway. You will be loved forever. I wish I could run toward you and say I love you. Hold your hand and walk in those greenish roads in colombo.

I know I will not be ables to get the same chance again. I ruined my opportunity.

I miss you a lot today Baba. Take care. 

19th December 2020

 Let the memories flood. I remembered you sweetheart. I did love you. And I always will. You will be loved always.

18th December 2020

After skipping many days, Im writing to you just to let you know that I haven't given up faith in you. I was totally a disgrace to love. I know my faults. I will suffer for them forever. Im waiting here in this side of the river sweetheart. I know you have left the scene. You have abandoned all the hope and the memories. Im just staying hopefully and tidy because I want to stay somewhere inside you. May be in your heart? Since August I didn't write you here. I was so confused and frustrated. I couldn't forgive my deeds. I didn't give a try either. Anyway I stayed silent intentionally. I was silent not because I forgot you but because I felt that you moved on. Times I wanted to shout and say your name and say "you are mine!" was numerous. I stayed silent instead because O didn't hurt my little angel again. You are my angel forever. you loved me. Im a person difficult to handle sweetheart. Im a person difficult to tolerate. I remember sometimes how painful words did I said to you. I couldn't appologize. I left everything that early and I didn't have time. I was wrong. I didn't mean any of those words. I was in pain. I just didn't want to torture you anymore. I loved you though Baba. I still love you. And I will love you forever. I still remember our daily schedule. I still get up around 4.55am. I remember how there was a good morning message everyday. How you left home around 6.30am and reached bus stop around 6.41am. I remember everything Baba. I miss you a lot. Love you.