When Friendships got messed.

Here when Im writing this letter I have done lots of mistakes by my side. I was with a group in the future also I will be with them but the connections between us have become to an turning point. Some mistakes of mine become severe. For some things I was really tolerable. But After some major changes in my own life style I have become less tolerable to the some things. In a short and sweet manner I have become more fragile. The worse thing I have become is a Clown. So there is a critical need to come up from those intolerable things. We were friends, than friends we were brothers. I dont know which variant is the best. But when a friend went through these few limits you will be condemned (like me) So the best thing is to keep silence. Its better if you can stay home always. Just go for anything in a call only. In a call also you should be very careful. Just like me you should be very careful when you attend parties dont exceed you own limit. The biggest thing is dont get caught to home. Than you and me they will suffer. Next day you will cry. About connections they should be handled very carefully. one word from you will kill your own friendship.

Specially with girls this is very important I think. write nothin to them if the time is not good for it, especially if you are drunk and when you are out of you mind. Impression they get is very bad. The picture about you very similar to a beast. 

So for good connections and friendships follow this guidelines. I learned them myself. Experience. But dont try to experience every things, Some of them are not very sweet and joyful.  

1)Never get drunk. or dont exceed you limit.

2)Dont involve to fights.

3)Dont involve  with Russians. 

4)If you are so sleepy, drunk, or in anger dont take calls, send messages, and dont shout

5)Be friendly(Yes you know you are already out of league) 

6)Be religious

7)Though this is in the 7th position one of the main principles dont forget you parent or try to hurt them.

8)Be a silent person.

9)A lonely life is not a shame or challenge 

10)Dont take much tension. Be cool. stay calm even in the places you cant stay calm.

11)Be always sincere to your parents, brothers and to sisters, and to friends.

 keep your faith in you. Believe your self.

Respect girls teachers and family.

so there are no big things to do. Just after some time you will be a nice person though others not satisfied about you. Its ok. for sure you will be satisfied about yourself. 

I like these students

Many called them business mans in the uni life.(those who are doing something) to collect some pocket money. Some times to send a gift to the girlfriend to fill the gaps of the money from home. A the best kind is those who tease and laugh at them. I call them the billionaires. A group of billionaires who came to study in Russia,......cool. Have you ever heard such a joke? Various things. I also do a work for pocket money. but im not throwing stones, Because I know some times I may lose my window if I do so. In reality   the window of the innocent heart. These are the work people build their own student life stories. Laughing at them is something like suiciding. Take the water thing. How many people laugh at them. A group of students delivering water to other students.  They are building their own life. Not actually the life, confidence in life. This strengths are not given by their parents. They acquire by them. Some people doing ticketing(Flight,vehicles,calling systems) see the life remove your 150 Ruble sunglass. You are the generation who are going to treat farmers, Pettah Nattamies, Some times even to beggars. So dont keep such kind of ideas about people. Its your Kind, the human Kind. They need your help. These are the activities people build their own sky skyscraper in their own worlds. Dont laugh at them just because of you money filled pocket. Actually you should be shameful. Because of your parents money you left the work of writing(building) your own student life story. My dear brothers sisters be the real students. See the history, see how great guys say their own life. The way they came up.They makes my world bright.

If any mistakes and grammar mistakes please inform me I will try to improve-medical student   

New semester

A new semester is going to be started. Tree leaves becoming to yellow color. Officially summer ends by September 1st. As a big groups of pilgrims we started to pack our tents and belongings to climb to the next campaign site.  This climb will be much difficult than the previous one. Its September 1st. Our new semester will be started. With the coming cold weather we will be like group of mice, who always try to gather in to a warm places. The places will be our hostels. As for me I have some exams to finish. So the new semester wont be a easy one for me. September there will be new students from other countries and Russian students too. so the university corridor will be a little packed. The thing makes me cold is the coming winter. -20c we are going to classes. Usually I fed up with this. Its kind of a mad idea. That cold will go through your bones, and go to classes? Yes we have to go. slippery icy roads makes the walk interesting. Autumn is the most kind period. Yellow color trees. A little cold but nice. This will be a short background story of our up coming semester.
Good luck.

  

Uni Memories.

The summer vacation is not comfortable. It makes us suffer than giving a joy. Last summer how we were in the parks, roads in the eves, Karaoke with the cocktails, disco light amazing disco's with alcoholic dreams. Wow, this is the student life which was a reality. A gang but not actual creepy gang. But as mentioned many times friend for friends. Nights in front of 1st brigade of police. Had hell of a fun. See whats happening with this summer. Rainy, sleepy ans I dont know. We ran out the party guys too. cant mention the names but now here very few of them. A student afraid to get out from the hostel for a walk at 2am. This is a nightmare. When Security guard following we came out. Now, all hiding, playing cards, watching films in a room together.

Man dont miss the youth as a university student. But dont do drugs, Drink a little but dont be supper man of the alcohol company. Dont smoke. (ok if only for a experience)

Once in a summer, I dont tell you the reason. But 2 guys in the police. Rest rushed to the police to take out the guys. bro we can tell this because were guys here we are guys here even today. 1000 not against one but one against for many. We met the real Russian faces. Keep your distance, policies, keep your virtue, keep your belief, keep you mind and consciousness always. But take a night walk on a road in Russia. Feel it. Dont change the system(Even Russian government cant do it. ) Just see, have a chat with a girl. Have some fresh air. Take a your own university life story when you leave. We are not Russian students. We are foreigners here. So Everyone should have his own university life story. Dont build big stories which are supper stories to new comers. Just your own one. not to print. As a memory. Without mothers fathers nearby. Whole system is   different. Dont misuse it. Its all up to you. We had it carefully. Now its time to you get a small fun. No the biggest. 

A run in a rainy mist

The ground was empty. No one seemed to play. Yes True. It was around 8;00pm. In mind there were no much expectations, But a big cluster of shame, unforgivingness, misunderstanding, debts, exams and parents. Since the day that I diagnosis with a high tendency to caught with hypertensive disease. I everyday complete 10 rounds around the near by football ground. Summer is coming to an end. Always bring me the thought the how different do I now? How much have I deviated from my own policies, which are already difficult to build again. Some I would never build again. But the I never give up. Smiling faces just appear only when a thing goes wrong. Sincerity, Friendship, Love, and Laws these are phenomenons. After a limit all of them become meaningless collection of letters and sounds and they won't help. You will be pushed in to a corner(Like me).

According to my own opinion I thing a lonely life in a apartment, hostel room, or a house is the best. To the class to the play ground alone to the cinema. This has a meaning. Meaning is you wont lose your self again.

Post Alcoholic period

Usually with a big head ache. for me with with memory blackouts. The period is painful till you get 2 paracetamol and a bath,, But the special thing. What were you doing in those memory blackouts in alcoholic period. The problem always make me suffer. Especially these days. These periods are very shameful. I caught to home when I was a little drunken. I helped a wedding get to its shameful moments. This period also blames. They should be. But the faces of the people which show the shamefulness about me.  After get rid of the alcoholic hang mentally many thoughts keeps your head busy. Madness,shame, helplessness,loneliness, educational debts, Mother father.
I apologize for every things that I have done miserable. I quit alcohol. In my short period of time I have many good works to do I will try to concern about them.

No more happy parties, get together & BBQs . Room should be the most comfortable place in environment. Outside its cold. Even in the summer its cold with people like me.
Take care.

Rotten dreams of a medical Student.(As a destroyer im writing this)

Rotten dreams.(The dreams spoiled by others)

Saman, A student who were senior to me and studying in our university. You already know this is a foreign university. Saman took a decision to marry a Russian girl. We didn’t force, we didn’t cheer, or we didn’t resist. Finally we also helped him to arrange his wedding. This was a new experience to us. A Russian tradition wedding ,with Russians. Wow. I was thrilled. The day were near. We were busy buying and finding suits for the Saman’s wedding.

   

Wedding day came we went to the registrar office we finished all the things there. And came to the Snaminski  church to get the blessings to the couple(Im a buddhist).

The here were just about to start the party. In the Garden of the hotel many champagne bottles opened. We were drinking some champagne. Then we went inside the hotel for the lunch. We drank, I gave a speech in Russian language. Some other also gave a speech. Then the music and dancing session began. Saman came near to me and told me don’t speak dirt in a wedding day speech. That’s enough to break my heart. I left the hotel and came to the road. Why? Did I tell something bad? All I speak was truth and something which can fill saman’s character by proud.  I never tried to make him a shameful person. Few minutes later saman came to my side and told me ”Don’t speak shits here”. My heart can’t bear more than that. I left the place and came home. Then they again asked me to come there. I respected obligation (I was crying in the taxi, im 26 by now.).  God sorry. I got drun after that. It may be because of the heart pain, finally I became to the asshole in the hall. The person who destroyed it.  When one mad ass, trying to dance and make that mother of the bride in to a critically shameful situation I was trying to prevent it and save her. I told that mother (My mother I love you) this is the greatest mistake. A son couldn’t say it. I didn’t have a feeling about those old ladies. FINALLY I GOT THE OPPORTUNITY TO TAKE THE DESTROYER OF THE NICE SMALL PARTY. My friends talked about me. There was disgust for the max. Finally I became the shameful oldies loving mad guy. True I was drunk. I never wanted to harm to or love or do anything bad with that mother. Then I remember nothing. Im in the hostel. No one Answer the telephones. I drank again. Mother and father caught me that I was drunk. Sorry mom. Sorry father. Never want to hurt you. I came this shameful person because of try to save another mothers respect. Today my party life ended. 20-August-2011. Sorry.

Having a punch in to the eyeball

We were drinking beer. Just in front of the fanciest are of the Kursk. The pushkinski. No one dare to come and give a shot to a foreigner this are. But I think finally after many year this happened. The nice thing about this is happened to me. ha ha. A guy with some bottle and girls invited to drink with them several minutes later the guy couldn't find his wives. so he became angry with me. What should I do. If they go. They are gone. In love or other relationships most of the time the good byes are forever. Then started the fight. Police came but supported to him. I got wounded. Hey,! Democracy. I challenged the police guy who is more than 6ft, im onlt 5,6.

I dont care. people should respect to others,. with periorbital haematoma I came home. Now Im resting. trying and trying to prevent hating. Kursk Nights May be Ended Like this too..
 I like to say F,,,, this kind of people and a dirty police service. Special Instruction-Russian police is a garbage can you will find many kinds of disgusting animals in it.

Kursk night life.

Time 10;00pm. here we go.......a gang of our boys always consist of 3 or 4 guys. Kursk has a night life very different than the day time. Its very popular in Summer time.
Nice girls, short skirts, fancy cars music and etc. We get out from our hostels around 10pm. We start our walk. beer is the best for the time. Especially because its summer. then we start our chats. day to day jokes. go after a beautiful girl. talk with her. get introduced to her. game goes far some times till we taking her phone number to meet her another day.

Kursk Night life always funny and exciting. A walk like this in the night is not so easy with the Russians. Russians are not a polite kind of people. But they are good fighters. Then some of the times we enter the Night clubs. Girls and boys dance. high music, techno beats. Some girls and boys are so high. with a vodka shot and a 0.5ml bottle of beer we get the kick. We dance with the Russian girls. Many sri lankan girls dont like to come to the night clubs. not only because we are getting drunken.(Though we get drunken we never harm any girl.-Policy). The dont like because they cant take the competition  with the Russian girls. As they are very beautiful and their figures are like shaped.(Im not insulting girls from my own country). Truth always truth.In some days we get together in the roads. some nice places near by roads with benches so we can have a sit and chat with a beer. There were many incidents Russians came to fight with us. but they afraid to do it because hit to foreigner is one of the biggest dishonesties to the law. Some times in the evenings we walk by the road having chats.
(No Beer)., Just walks for mind relaxation. There are many parks so we can go there and relax our body and minds. About Russia,Kursk,Life there are many things to tell for now I think this is enough. But when the semester starts all the things becoming so hard. so we enjoy a little. But we dont make it a game. 

People leave

Yesterday last groups of friends left for Sri Lanka. Everyone leave. When we make connections we never think about the terminations and limitations of connections. But together we. The Joy, Fun times, Chats, Musics and dances, romances, arguments, agreements, shared sorrows and fights. These become the true memorial stones in a garden called Friendship. In friendship there my be thousands of friendship gardens. some gardens may have small connections between them, but not always. Making a friendship garden is not a one persons work. There are certain thing built by others(other friends). When we were children we begun to build this garden. But we never knew. Friends came to our lives 15 -20 years ago some times we cant remember now. Some times now we are totally strangers to each other. the thing is we were so close and friends. we made this friendship garden. People afraid of living alone. So they love friendship gardens. So the some parts of the garden we built around 15-20 years ago now big jungles. though they are our own creations, tributing to the love, and friendship. After 18 year of each teenage age these connections become really complicated and interesting. They usually stay and work  apart from their own parents. So at about 20 years of age though we belong and love to our parents the gardening system become very strange. In my own school life friendship played a major role after 9th grade. I really respect those friends. We understood what we really were. so were sticked by a one rope. similar aims made us super guys. friendships became something more than that. As usually in each periods of life every person should finish his gardening part ant and say good bye to the others. He may have further connections with the same garden. But not like the times before. They may meet with new friends and so do we. But keeping a friendship is not so hard. what you need is a innocent heart.  But we should keep this in memory any one any time can leave from our lives including his own life.

My University

Though Im a medical student I havent tell about my university. Kursk State Medical University. A university situated in a small Russian city named Kursk. Kursk is a great place for studies. one of the universities in the European side of the Russia. The university situated in the heart of the city. In the Perikallskavo squire in a area where Russians played the critical game to save the city. Also a place Russians marked their victory against the German soldiers. If you come to Kursk some day you may see the monuments. We came here to at the fall of the 2007. In a spring time. At the present more than 3000 Russian Students, and about 1000 foreign students doing there studies here.KSMU was the best university for English medium in Russia, even to day it has the same excellency in English medium curriculum.Teaching staff have highly trained in European countries. There are more than 67 departments which are dedicated to students Education. Education environment is very nice one in KSMU. All the foreign students like this a lot. A library fully equipped with all the medical literature.  After 3rd year all the students are affiliate with the hospitals very closely. There are more than 15 hospitals which our students work with. I forgot to tell. there are more than 250 sri lankan students currently doing their education here in Kursk, in KSMU. 
The city is very calm and the citizens are also very friendly. Buses, Taxi,trolly buses, tramp cars, many transportation systems make the transportation very easy one.
KSMU has a great Excellency about it experiments. It had lead Russia and Europe many times.

We are very happy to become here and do our education in a environment like this. there are four season with a nice winter. which goes through even in the bones. ha ha. It is one of the best experiences in my life. And students from KSMU are playing leading roles in their countries. I love KSMU. like a child like to his school.

charith kumara
MD
5th year.
University FB link-http://www.facebook.com/pages/Kursk-State-Medical-University-KurskRussia/107590499294980
official site of the University-http://www.kurskmed.com/

A doctor

In sri lanka being a doctor is better than being a god. But If we discuss about this character there are many things a doctor must hold along. If we discuss about the stress a doctor take it is unimaginable. Since the first day of the medical college till the day graduation day a doctors mind and brain full of stresses. Exams, family, relationships, social isolation. and many.
Except all above mentioned things if you are in a foreign country the tress very high. Im not going to tell why, its better if you can experience it. After 6 year loneliness in a such a distant country after doing the studies to the maximum as we can we come to our own mother land to serve it.
My great wish is to serve my country. A doctor always should be ready to take any emergency till he get the emergency teems' assistance or till he get the specialist support. He should be a character have a ability to train his secondary staff. A doctor specially should have a keen knowledge and ability to manage  catastrophic events. which are with many casualties. A war, natural disaster and epidemic conditions are some examples.
When a country face to a conditions like epidemics a doctors character is very critical. Because he is the specialized person who comes to help our society. Sri lanka had gone through such epidemics recently. Except that he should be a person can be work as a family doctor, an emergency doctor a preventive medicine instructor even as a teacher. A teacher mean- a teacher to school teachers, nurses, lowest levels of health care personals.
He should be a kind character specially when  he works with pregnant mothers, children, and aged people.
He should be steady enough to see the unhappy ends of our patients. The doctor is doing his Maximum but the  out come is not good. prognosis is bad. Specially this happens with gynecologic,  and cardiac patients.
I would like to end the letter with a special extract,-
this was from the oxford clinical handbook of medicine.
the dedication was-the book is dedicated to those who are starting or in the thick of it, or to those who are at a sharp end of a difficult decision. 

Witness of a abortion surgeries.

At the time Im writing this letter to you im not in a operation theater. Im in my university hostel in Perikalskawa.
Abortion is a discussed topic in our countries, According to the medical view, according to the social and religious view. Actually in Russia the main indications for a abortions are Fetal defects, Maternal factors which could be dangerous for both mother and the fetus. Except all these reasons the main reason for high abortion rate in Russia is mothers will.
Why mother's will plays a major role in abortion in Russia? There are some main reasons younger generation starts their sexual activities very early even before they have a sufficient education about sexual relationships, family planing and safety in sexual inter course. All above mentioned factors joined together not only with the higher rates of abortions but also higher incidents of sexually transmitted diseases. On this back ground education about these things in any country plays a major role. Fortunately in our countries the cultural background, religion mainly Buddhism plays a huge role. We should be thankful to these silent forces and workers of our community to keeping the society a clean and nonpolluting one. As a medical student im giving these credits to them. For me there is no big shame to tell about my cultural support in healthcare.
As medical students we know the procedure and the succession of a abortion. Actually this is a skill that we should know. We should be able to follow this procedure in an emergency. In sri lanka it is strictly in emergencies.

With the start of new semester we began our obstetrics and gynecology cycle. Last semester we have finished our Obstetrics part so we were appointed to the gynecology section of the hospital. We were taken to a operation there were ongoing three operations. Our teacher explained, all the surgeries are abortions. One Mother came to the room and she settled to the operation procedure a special anesthetic substance injected to the vagina and fornix. For the last time doctor asked from her "Have you changed your mind?" she was very silent. I saw only one tear came from her right eye. She was 18 and the indication for the abortion was her own will. An non-matured life is going to pay for his mothers and fathers wrong and quick decisions. The fetus was 6.5 weeks old. Then the catheters, brushes introduced in to the uterus through vagina and they did all the manipulations correctly and then the suction tube introduced and sucked all the bloody materials from the womb.   Then they sterilize the vagina, uterus, external genital area and administrated pain killers. Mother walked to the ward without any problem. Then the next mother came their with a great smile. she was even smiling and talkative with the doctors. Indications to the abortion was mothers will. I couldn't take this any more I came out. my friend a Indian guy came out he was just about to faint. we waited outside till the end. If you are so young be careful some decisions make us suffer later.

Charith Kumara
5th year (MD)
KSMU

3D films.

Dear father,
 for the first time I saw a 3d film today. As i wasnt a film fan in film halls i couldnt experience this moment. But is was very exciting. I think its very developed than your time. we got special offers for our students' cards. 75 Rubels. Cheap. I enjoyed  than the film  because I memorized you. I was drawing a painting about your younger times in a 3d manner,(Ha ha ha). For sure you were the same curious fellows just like us. The film I watched was Harry Porter Last film. I didnt have a clear idea about the film because I haven't seen the first 7 films. But im sure its a nice one.
Near by the 3d film hall there is a 7d film hall. Here the price is a little high. we will try it next time. there we can feel the smells also, vibrations,...etc

wow. this city is changing quickly. 

Stories which may have become love stories.

Charon is a boy. He had many problems some of them are battles than problems. About the love for asians as charon, there are limits and boundaries. Some times exceeding a boundary will be a great event. Also may be a  wining of an event. For many of situations there were happiness and joy beyond those boundaries. charon also had some boundaries. but they were fulfilled according to others decisions. But charon doesn't have a frustration about these winnings at the boundaries. Some boundaries were totally losses. But some of them gave a joy to his parents such as his exams ordinary level and  advanced level. When he got to be a talented student after my 11th class his parents were so happy. The day came my university entrance letter. They were all devoted and honored memories of charons life. Charon like to dedicate all those milestones in his life to his parents. He was a dedicated son but not always. some of the goals partially fulfilled by charon. So charon has many debts on his side. But his parents were ok with it. thats why charon always dedicate his life, victories and happiness to his bellowed parents. When charon around 16-17 year old he fel the love for the first time. but the family levels(I dont care about them) were not compatible, and her mother had a mental disorder,(I dont like to insult her). Her mother was successful at her first attempt of suicide. So no more talks. charon had to leave the idea. Even before she knows it. for the second time charon saw a girl in his advanced level classes but the times were not good. we were busy to make the exam success so charon lost the second chance. Then charon met a very nice Russian girl in Russia. charon didnt tell her about his love because there will be a big resistance from his parents. He didnt have a will to keep the both sides suffer. According to charons point of view a love should be a very beautiful thing. but to find a perfect love you should give up many things. charon did so. he doesn't have a will to see a tear on his parents eyes or her on her girlfriend's eyes. charon looks for his future. there also many boundaries. they are fine. but the limits. limits are the most difficult. Time, life,relationships, human values, love, ....all those things can be find in the limits of our lives. even life has its own limit. we dont know when will it end. The funny thing is yet we play on this unstable grounds. love life all become illusions.